Am I behaving like Saitan?

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Am I behaving like Saitan?

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Adversity is part of life,

It comes suddenly,

Nobody knew or saw before;

Weapon is courage, 

Courage conquers fear,

Blaming others or God or fate,

Have no meaning. 

Generally We trust Only:

What we see,

What we hear,

What we perceived by other senses,

In the field of law courts.

I hear from religious preachers,

That God has created us,

That He is the Protector,

That He is the Destroyer.

Logically question comes to my mind,

Why there is preaching by religious bigots?

That this is Kali Yuga,

We are living in a cruel world full of sins.

Road in life is not straight,

Never be straight,

Has many turns,

One is to meet everyday with challenges.

Is it true?

He who trusts God will only see the light,

That light keeps him going in line of truth,

He will see the kingdom of peace,

Placed by God,

The person commits any and every sins,

How his crooked mind works,

How he shows saintliness,

Hiding his twisted minds,

shades of grey

How he keep secret of

The truth of his every deceptive character.

If God is the Protector and Destroyer,

Why there is metaphorical statement?

Be Careful,

Watch before you ask,

Stop before you go,

Think before you know,

Prepare before you join the work field,

Run with courage and with patience.

One can not see all the intricacies of me

What are not visible,

Transparency, Delicacy, Emotion,

Those matter rests internally,

 Which will never ever surface to the Ruler,

Remain in the ocean of my soul,

 If God is the Protector and Destroyer,

He knows everything,

If all are sons and daughters of God,

Then why?

A person is dangerous in heart

Being (coldbolded murderer) 

But outside calm,

A person's eyes are always wet due to pain,

Another person enjoys life having only gains,

No tears, No pain, No agony,

Particularly when a person 

Devotes his thought with God,

And Thinks How can he go on without God?

When God is his whole world,

God shatters him or her, takes plea

That this is test of devotion & faith.

There is everything in one country,

Everything in a city,

Everything in one family,

Everything with one person,

pleasure and pleasure,

He or she has been accepted,

has been honoured,

As if God is under the Control of 

Any kind as gratifications.

WHY?

If I am accusing God having malice ? 

Am I a prisoner of my own thoughts?

Am I behaving like Saitan?