Depression

I am sitting,

Another December Night,

Cold wind flows which is natural,

In its flow, something comes in my mind,

Which I intend to express,

As opportunities in life comes only once,

And,

So, I am embracing it to keep

In my dreams.

Thought comes to my mind,

I have nothing in my life,

This feeling that is deeply painful,

Which corrodes my heart,

Tears are coming,

Though situations may be changed,

I forget the philosophy,

That I am to try to change things.

I know that life is full of struggles,

I have to try forgetting the failures,

Of course, it is not easy at all 

But only option is to try,

Because I can't punish myself.

I am to love my life, 

Otherwise, I will suffer,

More and more with passing moments,

Turmoil and tussle in mind would overflow,

Unbearable 

And momentum of happiness 

Would vanish for ever

Taking me to depression.

Time passes without waiting anybody,

Wounds would be a green,

With intense pain,

So, I have to march in perfect way,

To avoid the dreaded graveyard 

Of my heart,

To bring my sanity,

So that permanent blot 

In the fabric of soul can be avoided

By banishing from such thought.