Desperately Lost

Doing so badly these days that I just wish to lose my existence;

Back again home and I feel like no endurance...

Don't ask questions you don't wanna know,

Learned my lesson way too long ago;

Put your lips on my skin and you might ignite it;

Hurts, but I know how to hide it, kinda like it;

Know that I loved you so bad;

So I let you treat me like that,

One heart broke with that stroke...

I crossed my heart as you crossed the line,

But now I hate you with a smile on my face...

In your eyes, there's a heavy blue;

One to love and one to lose,

Saw the dark side of the moon,

And drunk on a feeling, alone with the stars in the sky... 

Yes, I got anhedonia, so awful and I just wanna have is a synonym just like the moon...

Wishing a wish is let everyone be doomed; cause I just wanna bloom...

Bad-bad change that I got is 'bout to kill everyone's view and at the end, I'm just desperately foredoomed...

Then I sonder in wonder was it okay not to be okay? Cause my tranquility was finding it funny...

Playing and replaying old conversations,

Overthinking every word and I hate it;

Being Desperately Lost...