I Am Jealous

For a short time, we laughed at your humorous comments

Within your core you surfaced your innermost demands

Where only the trusted you took them there 

Then you were gone like a flash of lightning

You feel no pain you shed no tears

You see no signs you hear no words

While I swim in my tears crying bitterly for you

My emotions screening silently your name

Am tired of carrying around a pleading bleeding heart

Begging each day for you to show up at my door

Wishing on a shooting start you'd fall out the sky

I am totally alone and so full of jealousy

For you're sleeping sweetly in your mind of darkness

I am jealous for you cannot see my tears 

You don't feel my pain your care I feel no more

Your arms all cold you cuddle yourself

I no longer exist in your heart

I am jealous you don't think of me anymore

You are sleeping sweetly in your grave

And I am so jealous you rest in peace