Maybe I am too late

Your hazel eyes always gazed at me,

amalgamated with your sweet peach smile.

But why I never noticed that stifling yearn of your eye,

We always flirted with such fire,

but why I remained oblivious of thy's peeping desire.

Our feelings was still growing 

when I mercilessly nipped it in bud. 

You've now planted a seed,

with someone else which blossomed 

Into pure love indeed.

And here I sit, 

alone and cold 

thinking about 

what could have been happened, 

what should have been happened

and what wasn't meant to be happened.

I should have let thou love me,

I should have let thou in.

I thought I was only trying to save you from heartache,

That I was sure would begin if we had happened.

But I forgot,

Thou were never like the others.

Still I always threw myself in the pits of denial,

Now see who got lost in boundless whorls of nether.

These days,

I see you giggling with others, 

It makes me remember 

the laughter we shared 

with our faces covered with frothers

and the amity we shared on 

our love for lamb trotters.

I am trying my best to 

not choke on my tears,

As I walk by silently, 

Pretending not to care.

All I have left now is your writing,

"To my dumbest chickling" 

there it was written in deep black ink 

but why was I far too blind, 

To realize the concealed feeling of doting.

Gone are the days 

where I fed off your energy 

and burned with delectation synergy. 

Those memories may have faded for you,

But I keep them in the back of my mind 

because it always gives me a knock of rationality. 

Someone said try to push pain far away, 

Someone said pain is killed only by time.

But why after so much time 

it still pains,

it still crushes me to think that,

I can't be your happiness chime 

anymore.

I wish I could call you a friend,

I wish things would have never been changed,

I wish I would have swallowed my pride

and never played this foolish game of arcane .

I miss the love that was never there but in reality always was there.