My Mind Thought

I wish the sun won't rise and set 

I wish in my bed I won't wake up

I wish I could be the wave of success

I wish the horses I would ride

I wish wrong deeds I would change

I wish my past no more I'll hide

How many times should I keep on trying

Yet the surrounding me they have denied

How long will I keep pretending

And in real life the society call me living dead

Mentors motivates me to keep the spirit of fighting

But for me I see the line titled the End

Am sorry to say am in wonderland

No more mountain top I would go for hike

I feel shame to stand before public to address them

Cause majority judge me as satanic

Evil minded are who once I trusted as friends

And now they are the same people wounding my life

Indeed the trust now broken like pieces of a mirror

Before the society I lose dignity and now am a minor

No one to see my good deeds

They only accuses me of my faults 

All that make them happy seeing me going down

What's delight Their day is hearing am totally weak

Someone even call me son of the witch

Till now am wondering how to change blowing wind

And give it a direction that will give me a smile again

Cause pain now too much with standing I can't

They will call you hero when your gone

While living they ensure you always at point zero

Hypocrite is the best traits they possess

All this have been at the back of my mind

It's now time to load off the baggage 

So I might feel free and accept what's life brings

Pain without gain and tears that will tire you a part