No Means No

I told you no. 

I begged you to stop forcing me. 

I said I wasn't comfortable with you 

But you didn't listen to me. 

You didn't understand my mental state. 

You forced me mentally. 

For you it was fun 

But for me, it was abuse, 

For you it was fine 

But for me, it wasn't, 

For you, it was a common thing 

But for me, it was mental torture. 

Why didn't you understand my worth? 

Why didn't you think twice before acting? 

Not everyone is the same. 

I am different. 

I don't like things this way. 

I hated myself for sending you the picture, 

I shouldn't have. 

I hated myself for giving you the opportunity to spoil my life. 

I hated myself for letting myself down. 

I hated myself for letting you touch me. 

I hated myself for believing in you. 

I wanted to get out of it. 

I hated myself, 

I hated my body. 

I was shameful. 

I wanted to suicide. 

I wanted to hurt myself 

And see myself bleed.

You threw me up into the world of loneliness and depression. 

Where I was in a conversation with myself state. 

Every night my pillows were my only companion. 

You should have understood 

"No means No".