SUICIDAL IDEATION

This is a suicidal letter

I know you ask why.

I wrote you letters with love

I wrote you letters with greetings.

I wrote you letters with Joy.

Inside.And you were happy.

But today I hope you will be happy also.

Because am writing you a death letter.

I may not be there when you get it

This my hopeless letter

No one had noticed my mood shift

Am emotionally living with pain

Seeing myself as a burden

Indeed I regent being born

Am tired of criticism in the society

So , depression have hit me

Like burning inferno.

Like a bomb exploding.

I can't do this anymore.

Please let me go peacefully.

I will rest in my grave.

I will stir in my slumber

Six feet deep is my home

That's where I belong

Don't cry when am gone

To me my race is done

So, my soul lay in peace

Rest easy you will say.

Rest in peace you will write

But I think I am right.

So , keep my memories Ecstasical

For you who were blessed to live

For me I was blessed to leave

Fake tears you'll fade

Colorful send off you'll create

Long live you'll say

Eulogy written like an essay

To pretend how much you cared 

Yet family violence was the reason

Why I choose to depart

So let me down the grave slowly.

Don't rush because you didn't rush when I was there.

I will rest well people

And remember to tell writers to complete my incomplete works

Good bye for now.

I don't know if it's good one.

Or a bad one, let me try this:

Bad bye dear ones

Don't mourn in my funeral

For you'll be polluting environment

Don't play painful song

That'll create sorrow to the family

Just quote my few ward's

From the piece of my art work

And ask all to look in the sky

Before you lower me to my special house

How do you feel now?

That I am gone?

Beyond the horizon?

To hell or purgatory?

 Do you feel bliss?

Or ecstasy?

How do you feel now?

When am totally silent?

You're right I know

Cause am in invisible world

You're so happy I guess

No noisy voice around again

Goodbye I say