Tragedies

My friend is dying

Without any other symptoms

She went into kidney failure

Two days ago.

She started hospice today

I will travel to her tomorrow

She is 51 years old.

The truth about tragedies?

It brings some people together

While driving others apart

It fills like a tide of inevitability

Which type are you?

I mourn alone

Rather than lose control

In front of others.

This is not by choice

But by nature.

Which do you do?

I comfort others

It tears at my heart

When they hurt

Most of my tears

Are for their pain

Which is worse for you?

But the deepest wounds

I suffer

Are the ones that could

Have been prevented.

Those wounds cause me to cry

Silent tears

Or a sudden sob escapes me.

Do you feel the same?

I have guided loved ones to die

With dignity and death

Reassured them as they stared

Into my eyes with fear

They take parts of me with them

I give them this willingly

Do we sacrifice enough?

Sometimes those missing parts

Leaves holes that leak

Into my very psyche

My soul, mind and spirit.

And that’s ok.

Because otherwise, it would

Mean I didn’t love them enough

And I do. I do. 

Do you feel the same?

The following is my favourite mantra

Lokah Samastha Sukhino Bahvantu

It is a blessing to everyone in the world. For peace and love to unify us.

How do you channel your pain?

Not only is the mantra sentiment beautiful but the sing-song sound of the mantra

Is very soothing to my soul.