Deteriorate

Many people have told me that I'm beautiful on the inside and out... they were only right about one. I know that I'm not beautiful from the outside now. This flat nose has made my personality flat as well. These swollen lips make me look like a duck. These cheeks are red, not 'cause I'm blushing but because they hurt. I'm sleepless not because of jet lag but because I can't accept myself like this, useless. My limbs are numb because of anesthesia. I know that I wouldn't be able to walk again. These scars are always gonna haunt me down but I would tackle them bravely because the deterioration of my outer body uplifted the beauty of my soul. They're lying that I'm beautiful from outside. No, I'm not. It's my inner beauty that is radiating so much that it is overpowering my outer ugliness. These scars symbolize my strength and courage and patriotism. I deteriorated myself so that y'all can rise.