Life is precious

It was march of 2016 when I first moved to "THE CITY OF DREAMS, MUMBAI" with my family. I was happy that finally I will get the chance to visit some new place, meet some new people and live my life way different than before. With all these thoughts I entered Mumbai. We were happy that it will be our fresh new start. In very short time only we settled there. I didn't knew anyone there so I was little worried, because I am a less talkative. In a month we settled fully. My mother had made some friends from our community whom she knows from before only. My little sister and brother had also made some friends from neighborhood. 

I didn't had friends because I am really a shy person, so I felt a little lonely. Every evening I go to the park we had few blocks away and sat ion the same bench as that bench was near all the beautiful flowers and at one side of the park and it is always peaceful there. So like that only I went there one day and sat at that bench. I was writing something in my diary, suddenly a football bounced on my face. I got really angry because it directly fell on my forehead. A guy came apologized to me. So I didn't said much just gave him the ball. 

Then after a bit that guy again came and we started to chat for a small time. I got to know that he comes here to play daily and lives nearby only. After that we daily met in the park and we started to spend most of our day with each other. I was happy that finally I have some friend with me. He became my best friend. 

Soon our schools got started. As soon as I come home from school I used to visit him. We had a small gap in our school timings. He used to come home before me and used to wait for me every day at the park. This became our daily routine. Luckily we were in same class so I used to help him in mathematics and social and he used to help me in science and Marathi.

Our moms also became very good friends. My mom trust him more than me and his mom trusts me. Everything was going well. We never hide things from each other. He know my everything. From my very first crush to my first periods. He used to tell me every little thing. Like what he had in lunch or how his teacher made him stand in the middle of class while he was sleeping, his first crush, his girlfriend every thing.

Everything was going perfectly. We are friends now from 3 years, but then one day I came home and went to his place and saw a lot of people outside his house. I got worried, I went inside with a little fear, then I saw him lying on the floor with blood running out of his hand as there were thousands of scratches over there, his mom was crying like he died, his dad was numb, he was not in the place to utter a word. I was in shock for few minutes, until his mom called my name in her chocked voice. I sat beside him.

I started to talk to him

Su what happen Su, why aren't you opening your eyes. Su talk to me. Su please say something I am getting worried. Su get up I want to tell you the something. Su don't leave me now please,I need you. 

By saying those things my eyes were filled with all the tears I had. I got up and saw around his room. He used to write down the things which hurts him and hide them inside his first drawer. I opened it and saw 2 papers. In first it was written,

Shikha left me for some other guy. Yesterday she called me in night and broke up with me and as I asked her the reason she said she is with some one else now. It broke my heart terribly, I burst into tears I don't know what I will do now, we were together for 4 years now and she broke up with me for some one she barely knew. I don't know what to do anymore. I am feeling lost

He has written this before a month. He was so hurt all those time and I couldn't notice this, I felt so terrible, I felt like I failed to be his best friend. I knew if he had talked with any one about this, he would be with us, but I think I never made him believe that he can talk to me, I just felt so horrible, like this is all because of me. I just burst down in more tears now, I was so scared to open the another paper. It said,

Aru, I know this is you who is reading this because you only know about this place. First I am so sorry for the thing I am going to do now. I know you will probably hate me after everything and before you do anything it will be very late and at that time I am probably gone but please don't burn my body just get it placed in a graveyard so you all can meet me there and second thing I am sorry is I did anything or said anything which you felt wrong but please never hate me. I love you Aru, I love you the most and forgive me for leaving you like this, I know we had so much planned to do together but now you have to fulfill our wish by yourself, please if you do all those things which we had planned I will be assure that you have forgiven me and I am leaving because I can't handle this pain anymore, I can't do this. Please stay with my parents and support them after this. Thank you.

                                                                                            Love,

                                                                                            Suraj

I was shocked for few days, as he wished we had buried him in a graveyard. I didn't went out or visited anyone for few days but I used to visit him everyday. I love him. He was..... is my best friend. I know he is watching me right now from the place where he is. I hope he is happy and safe. I visit him every day but now I am far from him, I tell his mom to video call me from his graveyard every day so I can fill him with my life. His parents are doing great now but his little sister is still affected like me. I call he everyday because Su was closest to her. I can't take his place from their lives but I can fill the gap by being their child.

He ended his life just because a girl who was never his, so just wanna tell you never do this to your family. Because after your departure there will be no one who can heal their wounds which you created so please never end your life just because a person. You will have a reason to end your life but there are thousands of reasons to live your life. Life is a beautiful gift and please don't waste it over a person because that person will not care about your death but people who love you will and it will hurt them forever because somewhere they feel like it's there fault.