Let Him Ruin Me

I'm the last thing,

He wants in his life. 

He feels disgusted

By my presence.

He keeps on 

Disappointing me,

Forcing me to leave,

But I want to stay.

He looks at me with 

Utter distaste and hate,

Like I carry some 

Contagious disease.

The more he wants to evade me,

The more I'm drawn to him.

He's like fire and 

I want him to burn me

Like a moth to a flame,

I cannot resist.

They said,

He was going to be my ruin,

Then let him ruin me.

Because through his hate,

At least I remain alive

In his memory.

And I guess

That is the closest,

I"ll never get to him.

Unusual love story

Isn't it?