Lost in my own world!!

I am not able to bear any more and done with all positive vibes. I just want to forget what all is happening around me and find some solace. I am not a regular drinker but now I feel there is nothing better than this!! This state of mind doesn't remind me the failures I have gone through. It doesn't prick me with taunts the world around makes me listen always.

Though everyone say that it is a bad habit, I am happy here, feeling better!! There is nothing more to lose and it's ok..when nobody cares for me why shall I care for others and what they think? Am lost in my own world.