Addicted To Love

Addicted To Love

The journey of anyone facing (substance) addictions, that moment when they know they need to quit. One quitting that makes them feel so much more than a quitter.

Well, it's 3.36 am, a beautiful night, 

With realms of positivity, filled inside,

I have a dream, I want to chase, 

A wake-up call, a life to embrace.

There are so many chapters, I wish to pen down, 

Each having a script, the script of me,

Who I am, may so never be known, 

But O' can I see, who I want to be.

And one of my chapters is surely this one, 

Where my story seems to have just begun,

With immense courage,

How I lifted this black jacket covering my chest, 

The surreal will, with which I decided the rest.

Intriguing myself I smile in surprise, 

How it was such a simple disguise, 

Pleasure and pain intertwined for long, 

Eventually bringing me to where I belong.

4.06, while the clock still ticks, 

How I cannot stop, no I do not want to stop, 

Want to capture all this to somewhere lean on, 

As I know there'll be times when I won't move on.

Guilt will be more, haven't I let everyone down, 

Yes, I surrender only to gain back the crown, 

Love is the motive behind my will, 

I promise myself until time stands still.

Do carry on, you lonely soul, 

I motivate myself for reasons galore, 

No, I don't know will anyone support me, 

Hope is that this dream will at least convey me.

The strength I have but I am too reserved, 

Somewhere I know, you all I don't deserve, 

Hurt too many, with this habit have I lost? 

Every other second, how that question haunts.

Yes, I admit, I got so so weak, 

11 years of giving in, a melancholy streak, 

Moments, and people kept tearing me apart, 

Where could I have run, with my bleeding heart,

Deceive and pain, that even enemies don't need, 

Pushed me to find, a friend in this greed.

No words, no feelings can ever justify, 

Not a value of worth, are my aching cries, 

But I know one day, I will give you relief, 

All I want is your two drops of belief.

Now that I have poured, most of my heart out, 

Please carry on to love me, without any doubt, 

New first rays, of the rising sun, 

How I am seeing, at 4.51, 

I smile, I rejoice, I am just so revived, 

Thinking how the journey of compassion, has arrived.

For I can see the dewdrops melting like the kiss of a better tomorrow...

For I can see the dewdrops melting like the kiss of a better tomorrow...