Dark Side Of Light

I said here in silence,

with voice shouting inside. 

I like here in board daylight 

With nothing but darkness but insight .

 A Cruel my fist that are full of rage, 

And punch them Into this imaginary wall .

 I Cruel upon the inside ,

Hoping I won't fall.

 A 1000 land minds insight ,

Yet None of them choose to go off .

Taunting me with tiny exclusion as if the trailer .

I start to choke with no inside of an inhaler .

I lie here lying to myself ,

That these are in fact flowers planted to bloom .

I seek the light in the dark ,

As useful as trying to use water to light a spark .

I look up ,and pleaded 

For these years to have been just a nightmare .

I feel a drop of rain fall from the bright skies .

I smile ,i laugh ,anything to disguise these cries . 

I look up , 

 And open my arms.

To whom I have pleaded once too often lied about bring a better me .

Each passing second make me shiver .

The strongest voice in me starts to quiver , as I lie asleep with my eyes wide open .