Deploy my Love

The world has had people

Who have loved so fiercely,

The art, the mind, the pen, the wars.

A battered curtain of a halcyon-

A rugged and ripped see-through;

A far cry.

Love that lasted two eras,

Beyond oceans, battlegrounds

Amidst plagues, hunger and

Separation; to finally flailing white flags.

Exchanging phone calls costlier than food,

And letters dearer than self-respect.

In covertness and greed, in loss and sin.

It scares me.

Its scares me how I will never know.

How I would never seek as much as

To only love you, my little doe.

It will always be fathomless.

Over what indulgence of skin and soul,

Had lovers spun a ritual overnight

Or a routine in decades?

A love so gruesome, hideous, unpalatable,

Verging close to a kitsch, I put together.

Like a hundred broken dreams

Waltzing in a platter filled with my tears.

Oh, how would I ever learn, that you

Weren't meant to stay with me-

Out and beyond?

How would I then, ever unlove the

Sediments of you, clogging the voids

That your absence makes?