Depression 14

Now you and l

Have been through

Hell and back

With our depression

And mental

Health

Issues too.

And some of us

Are still

Stuck

Trapped

In there hell.

Because some choose

Not to talk about it

There problems

Because

They simply 

Can't

Reason one

It's far to painful

Two

Because

Some feel 

Ashamed

And three

Because

Who can

We tell?

Without

Flipping out and

Afraid

Of being

Locked away

Yeah it's

True

A number of

You feel this.

But lovely people

Friends

My big family

You all.

Things can't get

Better

If you don't

Talk about it things.

I know you sit there

Alone

Away

From peering 

Eye's

Sometimes even cry

Asking the

Lord

Why?

Why me?

Why did

You mess with

My mind

Screaming

And shouting

Abusive words

Why?

Why ?

when you saw me

Struggling

Weak

An easy 

Target

Could you

Not just

Walk on by.

Why?

When l am asleep

You come around

Provoking me

Disrupting

My sleep.

Why do you 

Only show me

Dark things.

Why?

Every color

That you disguise

Yourself in

Is dark

And so scary.

Some nights 

I'm afraid

To close my eye's

Or

Even just

Blink

Why do l

I see your

Red piercings

Eye's

Standing in front

Of me

Looking

Chanting

Sounds

I've never heard

Of before

You are an

Alien

Force.

Came from

A dark and

Evil

Spirt world

You can't been seen

Only felt

By our head

Our mind

Tries to bury

It self deep

To not have to deal

With this pain

This evilness

That invades

Our body

As we shake

I want to scream

And shout

Some

But flipping

Hell

Nothing

Comes out.

I want to rip

My head off

At times

But my body

Feels

Numbed up,

To the core

Everything

Inside

And out

Is messed up.

There's

Nothing left

To fix.

Only

My fix

Is what

Is left 

For me.