Expectations
Expectations
If this is a test
Then I’m failing miserably
Only time will tell
If I can fulfill the destiny
That has been laid out before me
Expectations are climbing higher
With discipline
I know that I can fulfill them
But that’s it
This discipline
Will I find my will?
Being ordinary seems easier
But my heart won’t let me settle for it
My soul craves to be extraordinary
Because it can see
That it has the capacity
But the path is filled with grief and frustration
This isn’t a new revelation
There are so many dependents
Counting on me
So many watching closely
I need to act carefully
Further, it remains to be seen
How I let this affect me
The world outside is brimming with opportunity
My heart yearns to use it successfully
But I'm restricted
Not infinitely
It’s only temporary
But looking at all the possibilities,
It’s heart-wrenching to hold myself back
The words “hard work”
Keep churning in my mind
A constant reminder
Words that I now live by
But keep getting ignored
Why is it this hard to push myself
And jump in completely?
Sometimes I feel like things
Come somewhat easily to me
Unjust rewards
Undeserved
Disproportionate to my efforts
People only see the result
And not the process
People, they don’t see the truth
Instead, they see images of grandeur, wealth and happiness
They see excellence and perfection
Where none exist
Life is not a fairy-tale always
Let me show them the true picture
What they see are only aspirations
Ideals of how I want to be
Oh! I wish what they say is true
But I don’t wish for them to say such things
Even if they were true.