Hurting

I’ve been battered,

Bruised and burned,

By the people who say they love me the most.

These scars don’t show

I carry them in my heart and in my soul.

Lies, deceit and secrets

They think they have kept it hidden from me.

Things that hurt

They say they did because they love me.

Is this love I ask myself?

Do they really care?

Cause if they did they’d know,

That their actions have left me bare.

Barren heart and barren mind,

I can’t talk to or trust no one.

My loved ones the ones I called my own,

I have lost them - their lies won.

Can things be swept under a carpet

Can lies be turned into truths

Can broken dreams be mended

Can I forgive and forget

I shouldn’t or should I?

Let bygones be bygones

Carry on with my life

But how can I when I know

Face these demons

Every second of my life

I feel cold and numb

Lifeless and still

Who can one trust

Do I have anyone?

No one fits the bill.

It’s only me I matter- I say to myself

But I can’t shake it off I can’t cut them off

These scars speak to me

Remind me

You stupid silly being

You have to carry on.

Put a smile on that face

And pretend nothing wrong.