I'm Lost

There was a time when I was a child, 

I didn't have to think and I just smiled,

I loved my life then, one with zero regrets,

No job hunting or paying debts.

I find it really hard to believe, 

that once upon a time,

things were easy to achieve, 

Now I work and work and continue to work some more,

Until my hands are red and my eyes are sore.

Life is just too difficult now,

Can I stop?, "Sorry, that's not allowed" 

So then, I just continue to work more and more,

Until I fill that void to meaninglessly explore.

I want my joyous and childish life again,

When I was truly happy, like when I was ten,

I lived freely and breathed freely,

For then I was living rather ideally.

"Oh, it can't be that bad", you said,

Easy to say when you're in a shed,

Unlike me who wants to explore,

The whole world, despite all (its) chores,

I think I just need some motivation,

Turn my accusations into affirmations,

I have to quickly find my way back,

If I wish to get back on track.