Jealousy

She was lurking in the corner of my room

Just waiting to crawl into my mind and sleep next to me.

I saw her walking in,

With her red high heels.

She barged into my mind,

And now refuses to leave.

I see the paintings she hung on the walls of my mind

And the fresh set of blankets she spread on top of my heart

Jealousy,

She consumed me,

Turned my burning red of love into ashy greys of spite.

Now, I wake up next to her

See her as soon as I open my eyes

And I’m not even surprised.

She lives here now,

And never keeps the room clean

She’s driving me down a downward spiral

Clasping my hands and loving me with all her might

Like she’s never letting go.

My mind fogged up,

Filled to the brim,

Overflowing

Not letting myself see my own thoughts

Living with you is tough,

I can’t fight anymore

But I can’t let you win either

Nonetheless,

If you’re willing to stay,

Don’t follow me everywhere

I can’t carry you around anymore.

Don’t take over my mind outside the house

Don’t touch my heart with your dark dirty hands

I can only deal with you at home,

I’ll see you there