ME and Myself

These days I feel like grown up

Now I don't hold grudges

Now I don't despise anyone

Now I feel grateful about everything

Now I am trying to mend broken relationships

Now m becoming more forgiving

Then suddenly this question arises

Does all this really mean like m growing up

Or it's just a phase ?

As I am tired of my old self

Tired of holding grudge

Tired of feeling lost

Tired of calculating people who are no longer part of my life

Tired of not being happy

Maybe in pursuit of happiness

I learn to grow up

To smile more often

To feel peace

To enjoy sunrise and sunset

To enjoy music

To enjoy someone's company

To enjoy being myself

To enjoy meeting me

To enjoy loving me

To enjoy admiring me

Does all this contribute to being a Grown up or is it just a phase?