Mom

Mom.....

As this time of great ascension .

I have feelings of sadness , bouts of depression, anger, 

pain of a heartbreak denial of the power. 

I have basically a hollow feeling inside me,

Without you my greatest strength.

This sudden rise of these feelings upset and confuse me.

But I know it’s completely normal.

I am going through rebirthing of my own consciousness.

And what I am feeling now are stages of grief.

I am grieving the death of the old me,

Who was totally dependent on you.

I am grieving the collapsing of my old thoughts.

But now I know It’s ok to feel this way,

As memories was part of me for long time.

It’s time to move on and should allow myself to grieve

To feel the emotions to understand them 

And to let it go.

I am becoming strong because you were my strength not weakness.

Now I am learning to swim in this ocean of life alone.

You are mirror of experience in this reality.

I can’t let you feel down, you will be alive in me.

Till I am breathing in this world.