My Favourite Almost

I know I can’t call you mine,

But I can’t pretend anymore that it doesn’t hurt

And that I’m perfectly fine.

I know you tried,

But I also know that I’m not gonna be okay 

With whatever you might decide. 

There’s so much that goes on in my mind,

And I now realise 

I’ve got to stop acting blind,

I don’t want whatever we have to be obliged, 

Even if it makes one of us look unkind.

It’s been a month,

Everything has been stagnant,

Can someone please tell me now,

How do I get rid of this attachment???

I know I have no right,

But I still wait for you to call every night,

It’s always those two seconds of delight;

Oh how I fucking wish!

This was a chapter I could rewrite. 

I don’t know what it meant every time you showed care,

I don’t know if god even heard my prayer…

I wish I kept it hidden,

Because I always knew it was something that was forbidden.

I guess I’ll have to stop walking this never ending road

But I want you to know

You’ll always be my favourite almost<3