Pretence
Pretence
Five days, it's been a record,
Whatever keeps us from each other
I won't say, 'cause I don't know;
I just know people change
After they stay a while,
Make me feel alive;
All that done, they pick up themselves,
Their love and affection
Care and attention,
Teach a little lesson
And then fade away.
Fadeaway from view
Yes that's true
But my heart, damn it,
Sees what my eyes can't.
I still write about you
In my midnight poems,
To my people-diaries,
In dreams alias nightmares,
Which reminds me
Of what you wrote
About me (what a joke)
In your public diary
In a different tongue
Heavier and classier,
I didn't know until you told me
That I was the subject
But then you admitted
That I wasn't a choice
I was just available,
Maybe I'm replaceable
That's fairly believable too,
For this isn't a first.
But I'll pretend,
Until I'm tired of those verses
That excites me so that they make me sick,
Until I've learnt them by heart
Just by staring at them for hours
Waiting for these hopeless dry eyes
To let down at least a single tear
And make me feel lighter,
But no,
I'll pretend, with a disappointed sigh,
That I am and I shall be,
The sole muse for you
By the riverside.