Hopeless Romantic

I am a man and a hopeless romantic

Just her smile started the clock in me to tick

The timer is set ready to explode, no need to click

I very well know, my heart is going to be shred to pieces

Still, I am brave to explore this emotion and take it to places

She is in my thoughts day in and day out

Fear of rejection has my mouth tied and shut

I am trying hard to find a way out

This way since my teen I have seen and been

I did get the look from a few girls who had the sheen

But never approached them in fear of creating a scene

Sometimes it was overthinking that killed my spirit

Being unsettled in life, unnerved mee alright

My honest intentions of love got me uptight

I wonder what my life would have been like

If any one of those girls had gotten on my bike

Would my life have gotten a power spike?

And I did be swimming like a winning pike

How I wanted to cruise with her in the back

Holding on to me tight as I zipped on the track

Her breath on my neck more potent than a crack

Transporting me to the wonderland without a smack

I wanted to take her out on a moonlight dinner

With red roses on the table in a diner

Where the wine sparkled in the glass so finer

A scrumptious meal, not having it, would have been a sinner

A getaway with her to the far off nature

Holding her hand and walking down the pasture

The wind gently blowing her hair, showing gesture

Sun kissing her cheeks and outlining her posture

Her eyes shining bright and lips glistening in rapture

A sight all so overwhelming for me to capture

I wanted every day with her to be a celebration

Our lives entwined without any calibration

Leaving behind our bloodline with liberation

Walking the last mile with her in deliberation

All this has remained a dream till date

Now in my forties, I am not set for a sortie

Mind being young and I still can be naughty

Used to being alone for so long

Will I ever be able to live my dream?

Should I take the first step and be the man,

Who I always dreamt and meant to be!!