Sad life

Life was good when I was 3

just give me a chocolate and I am happy. 

All day home, 

sleeping with mom.

Playing all day, 

holidays in May. 

No tension no trauma, 

only fun lots of drama. 

Never thought about money, 

you felt sorry then I forget honey. 

But now I've no time for joys, 

life was good when I had some toys. 

Now I'm happy alone, 

social life time is gone. 

Feeling depressed every hour, 

usually over think while taking shower.

Where are those friends who were a part forever, 

I think I'll find them never. 

There's no peace there's only pain, 

I thought it's good to be an adult but there's no gain. 

I suffer having some harder times, 

looking for some words that match that rhymes.

Wish I could be back in that time when astronaut and sports were my dreams, 

and now I'm just living with sorrows & laughing at relatable memes. 

Things aren't working good with my health, 

not to mention much about my wealth. 

I'm broke because they chose someone and not me, 

locked my pure heart and took away the key.

There was a time when I used to trust much, now thinking about life it's not as such. 

They said I changed yes I did, 

have lovely memories when I was kid. 

Now the same boring day and night schedules, fed up of the corrupt system that rules.

I don't know when these things will end,

May be still there are some more days I have to pretend.

I'm happier than others my condition is better than many, 

but there's no positivity no chance of any. 

Sorry it might feel that I'm disturbed,

but I'm trying to figure out why life's messy & perturbed.