Seasonal Showers
Seasonal Showers
You know that
I have always fantasized
About you, me and the rain.
About how we will
Get drenched
Into the rain together.
About how wet Urvi
And wet you will
Dance together
On the sound of the drops
Falling from above.
About how we will share
One umbrella to
Escape from the rain,
Your hand in mine,
Trying to save each other
And being romantic
At the same time.
.
About how when
I shall start feeling cold
And sneezing,
You will take off your jacket
And cover me inside it.
.
About how we shall
Have those
Moong daal ke pakode
And fudine ke chutni
Accompanied by
Strong hot coffee
After getting wet.
.
About how you will
Hold me on
When I see potholes
And my face gets
All afraid of spoiling
My favorite pair
Of sneakers.
You know today
When these
Seasonal showers hit us,
It reminds me of you,
About all the
Incomplete moments
I still wished could
Happen with you.
And here I sit
By the window
With my cup of coffee,
Slowly getting lost
Into the smell of the rain
That I love the most,
And the rain getting heavier.
Small drops jump off
From the window
And lay on my face,
As if it were you
Slowly caressing me
After those depressing nights.
I have always enjoyed
This feeling and
Have intentionally opened
The window to feel it.
But today it is different.
Today
It reminded me of you,
Of the incomplete moments with you,
About how every time
We met and I told you
It shall rain
And it did rain
After we got
Back home but
Never when we were together.
It reminded me of the
Shattered dreams
And fantasies about
You and me together.
This time,
I closed the window
And got back to work.
Staying there was like
Going back
To your memories,
It feels good
When I open the
Box of memories
Of when it started
But as the story goes ahead,
The tears slowly
Start mixing with the raindrops.
This time I finally chose
Smile over tears,
This time I chose
Me over you.
This time I finally found
Myself after losing you.
This time I felt proud of myself.