Shades Of Black
Shades Of Black
Break my heart
Break my bones
Lift me up
And throw me down
Hold me tight
And take my breath
I know your presence will cause my death
Cut out my heart
Leave just a hole
Destroy my mind
And rip off my soul
All these memories
I hold on to
Fragments of happy past events
Now colored dark, just shades of black
I want to paint them colorful again
But you just push me back
Do you like those monochrome pictures?
So dark and cold and numb
You like that the feelings are fading
So that you can see me as nothing but scum
What's left can be easily denied
You told me, it's just like your mind
Just filled with shades of black
I want it to end
But still, carry on
Ignore my screams
Ignore my tears
Just watch me suffer from my fears
Your words, your acts
So sharp and cold
Your scheming behavior,
Unfazed and controlled
Your ignorance
Your cruelty
Your toxicity
Your apathy
Your distancing
Your inhumanity
All these memories
I hold on to
Fragments of happy past events
Now colored dark, just shades of black
I want to paint them colorful again
But you just push me back
Do you like those monochrome pictures?
So dark and cold and numb
You like that the feelings are fading
So that you can see me as nothing but scum
What's left can be easily denied
You told me, it's just like your mind
Just filled with shades of black
I want it to be over
But still stay here
The thought that you don't care for me
Is still the worst
It shouldn't be
I know you'll hurt me
More and more
I know I'll let you
You're so obsessed
With staying alone
You hide your feelings
And watch me drown
You want me to hate you
You push me away
You punch and you scratch
But I still stay
All these memories
I hold on to
Fragments of happy past events
Now colored dark, just shades of black
I want to paint them colorful again
But you just push me back
Do you like those monochrome pictures
So dark and cold and numb
You like that the feelings are fading
So that you can see me as nothing but scum
What's left can be easily denied
You told me, it's just like your mind
Just filled with shades of black
It would be better to let go
I should forget you, yes, I know
To clear my mind,
To save my soul
I should just leave
Climb out of that hole
Just leave you behind
And start a new life
Alone
But who am I kidding
I know I'm addicted to you
I know, I won't go