Shattered Trust

Those days and those nights came again,

The pain of betrayal,

The string of bluff,

The bruises of vicious talks,

The trap of entangle,

All are ready to jugulate me.

For being way too loyal again and again,

And for that just the price of I have to pay again,

Yes it hits me hard again,

When I received his text after one year,

But I couldn’t speak a word again,

I was confused what I have to say and what not.

And suddenly from text to phone calls started,

Still my heart was pondering about him,

Those bruises and scars were still visible in my heart,

His each word was still hurting me more and more,

But still I had some hope from him,

That he has changed now but I was wrong.

Still he was same with façade of lies,

Trying to trap everyone in his grasp for own business,

He was same with his instincts,

But no one one could understand him and his deeds,

It was his talent to attract someone,

Being so arrogant in friendship was his nature.

And one day it hits me hard again,

All those shattered trust like before,

Started haunting me day and night,

The pain of losing faith suffocating me,

Locking away all my feelings in the deepest part of my heart.

Fighting against the hate created by him.

I fell down once again,

Just trusting on my friendship,

Being naïve in friendship, I got hate, shattered trust and a lot of pain,

Can’t imagine what’s happening in now,

Moving here and there to get some solace.

My spirit is being crushed,

My feelings are being destroyed,

But can’t do this friendship again,

Can’t gather strength and feelings again,

My soul can’t handle any bruises now,

So many broken promises shattered now.

Maybe I will just give up on friendship,

Maybe I have to erase all the memories of my past,

Maybe I have to close all the doors of his arrival in my life,

Maybe he will think that I am same what I was?

But mistakes can repeat one or two times in someone’s life,

How is it possible to break again and again the same piece of glass.