Strory Of My Life

Story of my life

Begins with a big line

I have a younger brother 

Whom I love more than my own life

But like every other story 

I am criticized

For doing righteous things

I am always criticized

The things I bring are poisoned 

Or I have a dirty mind

Seeking a true love

Is what seems fine

But here are the losers

Who cant resist this crime

Am I the only one getting panic attacks

Hearing blurred lines

All my life 

I have expected to shine

Wanted to get things

Which are pretty mine

Why Am I always blamed

For all shady things, I am tamed

For all misleadings 

I am the one 

To lose its head

Why am I being held

For something I never did

Never questioned me of this

Just because I dont use ointments 

That doesn't mean that my wounds are healed

I may carry a pretty fake smile

Knowing my heart is gonna bleed

Sacrifices I made

Were never remembered 

Decisions I took

Were never embraced 

Now I am tired of waiting

Wondering if anything ever

Gonna come around

And hold my sorrows

For the deepest time

So that my life gets a little amount

But for the stolen pieces or 

Disappointments

Bad habits and

Realizations

I am the one

To be blamed

Cuz I never did wrong

So it's pretty fine to tame

Throwing is not the solution

But I am treated as a garbage

Truthfulness is what I adore

But its foolishness

And makes me a pile of sage

My smile wanna take back all the pain

Cuz it's never too late 

I never gave up

Or cried my heart out

That's what I assume

Thinking out this loud

I may like some vanilla but I am not

That sugar sweet

Cuz I have given up my wishes

Buried them as a rubbish teen

Whenever I got disappointed 

Never blamed anyone

That's why when they had any problem

I was always the one. to be blamed

And called out

To be removed 

Or freak out

But its never late 

I wish I die

Whenever I lie

Cuz there's a storm of clouds

And shadows on my mind

And when I realize sunset never turn to sunrise

My hopes started to decline

Its the story of my life

I take away the pain

But only in return 

They throw away the blame

My words may seem lame

Cuz its not a twisted ponytail

Just to make others happy

I gave up on my dreams

Never had the courage

To stand alone as it seems

I dont give the blame

For all the bloody moments 

Cuz I gave them the opportunity 

To get hold of my dots

I dont belong to anyone

Nor they belong to me

That's now the only thing 

I hold in my breath 

Always in there 

Never took the time out for me

Has led me to this position

When my reputation 

Is on self-deprivation 

Whatever I do is not a picnic

Even good for Mr is a curse

Makes it hard for me

Which road to go down

Knowing too much can get me hurt

Whether I move

Forward or backward

I always land as awkward

Always termed as ugly

Always hold tight

To regain my consciousness

I need to break the chain right

There always someone

Who pushes the mountain 

But I am never gonna be able to make that move 

Cuz I have never won an uphill battle

Always I had to lose

To all those fake accusations

Which gave me trauma

Blinded by truth 

Inhale my decision

When they murdered my self-esteem

They could kill me with one spade

Rather than giving death by a thousand cuts 

And the story of my life 

Is whatever I do

With good intention

Never turns good 

Cuz fate is so bad

It curses the sad

Not trying to be rude 

But it's a sad truth.