A Girl with The Plan Vol.1

An old lady is dancing alone happily in her own space. Singing the lyrics together. “Alexa play the next song from my playlist”. And now was playing *shape of you by ED Sheeran*. “Ahh, I love this song so much, humming those lyrics she was dancing happily. The sound of speakers was coming out of the house. People walking nearby could hear the music as well as the old lady singing the lyrics. People started talking about her.

A girl’s life is much more than poverty or any kind of sexual abuse held at her shown in many movies. A light-hearted film can never be shown in a Woman’s real-life it always turns out to be a very big question mark on the very “Society” issue. A Girl is always so mature much before men because she witnesses and also feels about the bad times in the family very easily. Childhood or Parenthood they always have a soft corner for their fellow family members and to anyone whom they believe they are very close to and also love to the fullest. You see the stereotype coming when a girl is found cheating on one boy because of another boy. And bluntly as the world sees it, she becomes something else. Well you know girls are very much complicated a mere boy can never imagine that how many reasons that a girl can have you to ditch that boy, not to argue about it but yes all those said is true. We men don’t realize what goes through a girl’s life. As the great say Difficult and Complicated things give you the most beautiful solution” so here it is.

Sunaina Mehta was born in a very middle-class family. Her dad is a Real- Estate Manager, Sunil Mehta, and her mom Laveena Mehta is an English Teacher in a very reputed school. Sunaina studied in that same school. Sunaina’s parents had a love marriage and had borne a child at an early age. Mom had to withdraw her college where she wanted to pursue a degree in Arts while Dad was studying MBA. They’re both parents who didn’t approve of their relationship and they both ran away and got married. A mutual decision was to let Dad get the degree and Mom will look after the baby. But though after very many difficulties her mom started regretting the harsh reality and couldn’t handle the pressure. Dad was busy with the work in a clear-cut motivation to build a foundation for him. They both separated their ways when Sunaina was just 5-year-old. Custody of the daughter was given to dad because mom was resulted to have mental instability. It’s been all nice for a single dad to raise this beautiful girl and also, he allows Sunaina to look after her mother who is doing great by having a job as a teacher. Sunaina’s childhood was a hard one but the strong attitude of her dad taught her to handle it with grace. Her dad is always protective of her. Since childhood, her dad is always looking after her with very much tenderness and as the days passed by as she was becoming big also bore her tantrums. When at the age of 15 she got her first period. She was scared because there was no one in the house and she called her dad up about the blood passing out. Dad with not much knowledge about it was also damn scared and the doctor laughed about it and explained a few things right in front of dad and daughter. From then her dad started reading some books about changes in a female body. He allowed long stays with her mom because he also thought she needed it to share certain things just with mom. And dad used to always look after her with tender care. This made the perception of a certain type of boys in Sunaina’s mind at the age of 16. At 16 is a very beautiful age you don’t give a fuck about anyone and try learning everything from friends. Since the school was high-class people used to change their accents to look rich in front of other friends. Through this Sunaina slowly began to change her attitude and posture to style and walking style. Her eating habits started to change too. The time of 16 is always very uncontrollable because of the already releasing hormones starts a subtle urge to do any energetic job. Feeling this her dad sent her to dance class so that she could just use her energy for well. Craziness was the one that made her care less about the public that was watching her. Being in school and her building there was a big change. At 16 the main criteria become to make many more friends as possible as much. She even made a Facebook account at 16 by entering the wrong age to be eligible as per the age criteria. 16 itself becomes a very tensed age for most of the girls and the same was with Sunaina. Almost every month due to her periods her body used to ache, almost weird cramps and school talks about dealing with periods. Boys would be very eager because early age taboo and girls would be very secure while talking about this. Sunaina had this bunch of best friends Sunita, Neha, and Kajal. These four girls weren’t that popular in their class because they won’t talk to anyone in the class. They would be always talking about their world. But as they turned 17 the world was a bit different now. The changes in behaviour and need to look good was a bigger task now. Sunaina was never demanding to her dad because she knew with how much difficulties he has gained his fortune but also the need to become beautiful was eagerly boosting her up. She started asking to make up kits from the top brands. Started going to the beauty parlour with her friends. And secretly watching late-night adult shows. In the class, she would be only talking about the girly stuff. The group itself became a self-conscious one. Talking with Dad was reduced and for some reasons Talking with mom was increasing. Most of the time dad would come late from the office and found Sunaina talking with her mom this started making him annoyed. One day, dad decides to show up near the school to meet Sunaina’s mom. When the school ended, they both went to a nearby café and he ordered her up to her favourite coffee. Both were drinking their coffee slowly while she was looking at Sunaina’s dad’s face as she realized that she knew what he was going to talked about. Gathering up a little courage he asked her “Laveena I want to know what are you and Sunaina talking about. I am not feeling right that she is talking to you for quite some time and she as less talking with me. I can’t bear this change.” Laveena replied “See Sunil you need to realize that Sunaina your baby girl is not your baby anymore. She is becoming big and she will need a person who understands the same. So, you weren’t having enough time so she decided to talk about her body to me.” This statement itself brought a big impact on him as he thought he needs to give time and space for his daughter if no he is afraid it will lead to something else. Sunaina was having her best of times and she was in high school the ward of romance just kicks in. She always used to like this one guy in her class his name was Ashish. Ashish was a rich kid and spoilt one. He goes to the gym and has these muscular bodies and always trying out things to flatter the girls. He has never been in a relationship no one knew why. Sunaina was first his friend and slowly started liking her. This went on for days and restlessness was how to tell him. Sunaina always opted to talk every boy problem to her dad but at this topic, she was a bit scared of how and what will be his reaction. She decided to talk about this as usual to her mom. But it seemed that she was very busy. This was very annoying and one day she decided to confess about it to her dad. One evening, Dad came to the home after a hefty work done in office he sat on the couch and poured some whiskey in the glass and sat relaxed. Then slowly Sunaina came near her dad and sat with him. “Dada, how are you?” Sunaina blushingly asked him. “Hmm am good babu and why suddenly so concern? Ahh, I know this face…! You want something?” dad asked her with a smile. “Ahh, it’s nothing dada it's like can I ask you something? When you were in love with mamma during her school days so obviously you always told me that you proposed to her in this most beautiful way. But what was Mamma’s reaction? Did she immediately say yes or she took time?” She asked with her puppy eyes. Dad looked at her and he knew what was up. “You like a boy, don’t you?” Sunaina was shocked and she was going to deny this fact but she decided to play the true game. “Well yes dada I do like him but I don’t find any long time go with him but you know I need to explore many things in life before I could enter into something which needs commitment. Like seriously I don’t want to be those girls in a nutshell that don’t do anything. I mean seriously I don’t need to ask this with you but I consider this as my life my rule condition just needed some advice for the go.” Dad was angry at seeing this arrogant and time pass plans that she had and also and audacity to talk about such nonsense in front of him. “Just go to bed and sleep and think about something useful and not all this nonsense. I dare you to speak to me like this I don’t know what I will do just get out.” Sunaina was hurt and couldn’t handle her anger and she ran to her room and was controlling but not able to she just shouted and cried after that. Then she could hear a ping on her phone. It was one of her friends and then both started talking the whole night and then both decided a plan on how Sunaina could express her feelings to Ashish. Next, the morning she got ready and looked at the mirror, and while she was tying her hair and she stopped and looked at herself in the mirror. She thought she needed a change from what she is going through and the thing she wants. She untied her hair and let loose. Applied red lipsticks and combed her hair straight. She wore earrings big one and visible. She darkled her eyelashes and applied mascara. And she looked changed and not the Sunaina which followed all the rules. She let loose her shirt and pulled out where earlier it was in and rolled her skirt a bit above where her legs would come into notice. She stood straight with almost pride and attitude. She walked out of the room and said bye to her dad who was eating her breakfast. He turned and asked Sunaina to stop. He got up and came near Sunaina and “What’s all this make up it’s a school you are going to not some party go properly dress and come I will drop you if bus leaves but don’t go to school like this.” With a new attitude Sunaina looked at him into his eyes and said “Well dada it does break rules right I DON’T CARE” and walked out of the house alone. Dad was stunned and angry but he stood their silence. He decided to be silent. As Sunaina entered the bus everyone was looking at her and usually, she sits in the middle or front seats today she sat at the last empty seat. Boys were sitting in front of the last. They couldn’t resist her beauty and continue looked at her. She pulled her phone from her skirt pocket and was surfing on Instagram and one boy was looking at her and she replied to him with a middle finger. The bus reached the school and as she came out of the bus it was a new diva thing. Boys were just looking at her. Then her friends came from their bus and all of them joined. Sunita “Finally we brought the hidden Sunaina now just wait and watch for the boom.” Sunaina smiled and with upright chest and confident the four girls walk inside the campus where every boy’s attention was totally on Sunaina because now she was a new fish in the bowl. The school started and students were in the class. Sunaina was sitting with her friends on the last bench of the girl’s row. The teacher entered the classroom and noticed Sunaina’s changed avatar, but ignored and soon it became a hot topic in the staff room because seeing such a brilliant student sitting in the last with all her hair let loose wasn’t favourable for the teachers. In the recess, Ashish came to Sunaina “Hey girl today you look different almost unrecognizable.” Sunaina “Well honestly you see it’s for the being who needed the attention now that he has got mine what should I do?”, with a cheesy look. Ashish looked at her and said, “Well I wanted to tell you something I don’t think this being will ever say if it’s not for now, so should he?” Sunaina got up and came out of the bench “Let’s go sugar…!” Both of them came outside the corridors towards the front of the school and coincidently both of them said with a little hesitation at first “I LIKE YOU”. Woahh was the reaction and Sunaina began “Well now everybody knows that we like each other”, she came forward and kissed him on his lips. She then turned back and said the class will start now come. Ashish stood there for 5 minutes and realized and then ran to reach the class. Equations with the teachers weren’t the same neither with her dad all was changed for this new 17-year-old Sunaina.

This was the time for 10th std boards all were in the rigorous studies. Sunaina was going for group study at Sunita’s. She would end up having a sleepover after a late night of studies and chit -chats. Sunaina hardly talked to her dad. This did affect him a lot he started remembering the times where he had a family. He left her daughter’s hand and started blaming himself that because of his steer anger on love and commitments made him say those painful words to her daughter. Loneliness was killing him. So, by the time the boards were over everyone was enjoying. She came back home late after an after-exam party. She directly walked towards the room and while walking she saw that as her dad was wiping his tears as he saw her coming. She went into her room and was changing her clothes and she stopped for a minute. She wore her nightdress and came out of her room. She went near the couch and saw her dad was sitting alone and drinking his regular whiskey. She came in front of him and sat on the near coach. It was silent for some time and then dad said “Sunaina I am sorry I spoke to you in that manner which I shouldn’t have. I need to understand that my small little babu has become big and is on the verge of becoming something for the world. It’s just that I was scared that you might just forget me and I can’t afford to that at any cost. I love you. And in the end, I would say this one thing as a father that yes you will now see a world that will change the time and space but always remember I am there for you.” Sunaina looked at him and she was speechless. Her dad got up from the couch and went towards his bedroom and stopped “Well babu you do look pretty now did that boy complimented you call him for lunch someday. Good Night.” Sunaina has tears of happiness and utmost love for her father. Both had a good sleep. The Sunday Morning and Sunaina had called Ashish to her house for lunch. It was afternoon and she was dressed and waiting for him near the door. Her dad was cooking non-veg and saw her daughter’s anxiety. After some time the doorbell rang and she ran to open the door. It was Ashish he too was dressed up and shy. He came inside the house and looked everywhere. He then noticed Sunaina and said hi. Her dad saw the way he entered and called him “Hey Ashish…!”. Ashish looked at him and waved and said “Hi uncle…. nice house.” Her dad said “Well indeed yeah it was made by sweat and blood of me and my daughter. So, lunch is ready to let’s eat.” All of them sat on the dining table and dad started some conversation “Hmm seeing you, you quite look very much fit. Gym sessions are on point, I guess. How many hours in the gym?”. Ashish replied, “Well uncle I spend 4 hours in the gym.” Dad said “Hmmm nice so you two have known much about each other don’t you. Well, I wish you all good that this carries on for, a much longer time.” As he was saying this Ashish’s eye was constantly looking at the interiors of the houses the glass models the type of curtains. And he later saw Sunaina’s dad speaking just shook his head. After they had lunch Sunaina and Ashish were sitting in the living room discussing something while dad was looking at both of them and particularly Ashish and his movements. It was an evening that Ashish left for his house and bid goodbye to both of them. Sunaina was happy but her dad was started feeling concerned about her. Because the boy appeared to have a certain motive behind the relationship. He wanted to tell something or at least advise her about this but he stopped himself doing that because he knew if he stopped her now this might question her ability to think and react or at least the skill to face any consequences with self-confidence should be left out from his daughter. So, he remained silent and said that yes, the world is changing and my girl is too she needs to know what’s true and the real-world is without falling there is no rising. After a month the results were out and she scored good enough to select science stream and all her batch mates selected the same. The relationship between Ashish and Sunaina was getting much deeper but Sunaina never allowed him to go any type of physical. As the years went by in the same junior college the exposure was changing. Sunaina turned 18 an adult and had her party in a very lavish manner. A huge was cut. The expectations had grown and also the habits. Each of her friends had got their boyfriends. And those girls being heavy rich went physical in their relationships. Girls never cared about the feeling and the same was with the boys. It was all animal lust. The girls started smoking but Sunaina never touched that. One by one her friends from the gang lost their virginity and they would discuss this when sitting together. This annoyed Ashish that he was the only one from the gang who was not getting any action. Even after repeated asking Sunaina would deny him saying she wasn’t yet ready. Quickly the 12th was done and all they chose their different courses and Sunaina and Ashish chose to engineer. Sunaina’s was an interest and Ashish just followed her. This was a crucial time because now Sunaina was plunging into the sea where there were many responsibilities to cover up that she would start realizing later that what world she thought was the world wasn’t the one at all.

The first year of engineering started new people all around. Sunaina and Ashish weren’t in the same class. He was in A and she was in B. But during breaks either he or she would visit in each other’s class and talk. For quite some time this annoyed teacher and as well as the students in both the class. Lately, half the year had passed and something was different going on with Sunaina and Ashish they used to fight to get patched and again fight. The fight would be for sometimes pity reasons or the same old big reason that Ashish was the only one in their group who was a virgin. The relationship became a bit toxic, but Sunaina was always keeping with the truth herself. Ashish became a bit sly as time passed by. He was delaying her calls and suddenly the talk about being a virgin was over. He started walking happily. The change was accepted by Sunaina because for now he finally stopped talking about but the suspicious it became, though he was happy it didn’t feel that he was there. He started roaming with a new bunch of friends. He started smoking, drinking again very much excessively. She would tell him that it was bad yet he didn’t listen. One day, Sunaina couldn’t handle the distance of talking and she tried calling him. He didn’t pick up the call. Thrice she called but he didn’t pick up the call. This made her very much angry and she then called one of his friends near her. Asked him to call Ashish and then pass her the phone. This time he picked and she could hear a girl moaning and laughing. Sunaina was angry and agitated and said “You fucking bastard, are you with a girl? You Asshole…! And all this time you created a fucking drama? Fuck…. just tell me what did I didn’t do? I paid for your fucking drinks where ever we went, I was the one who took your bills and cared about you. And you had this audacity to do this. Just because I denied this one thing and it gave you the right to have sex with someone else.” Then Ashish started “What else should I do? You never respected my request. Everyone in the group has some fun and what all I have this big basket of disappointment. I just needed some kick in our relationship but in the end, it became very much toxic. But I would say I give myself another chance let’s begin everything from the start and in a very different way.” This brought Sunaina very much angry as the volcano and she shouted in top of her voice “Fuck off you bastard. Just get the hell out of my life you call me a disappointment you piece of shit! You just had your day from now on it will be my only mine.” Saying this she cut the phone. She was tensed and tying her hair she was gasping and cooling herself for a while she asked his friend that since when this was going on? He replied that for a month he was seeing this girl and during the evenings he would go to her house and come back late at night. This broke her heart. She ran to her class and sat on the bench. She was banging her head with her hands and crying loudly. After some time, her friends came and tried to console her. But none of them admitted that it was his mistake. The reason framed in such a way that she should have given time on him. She should have willingly given him wanted because they said that’s what is a relationship. Sunaina was shocked and couldn’t believe that her friends were supporting him. She stood up and said, “Relationship is not just about Sex it’s about the feeling.” On this day She knew and she decided that whatever was happening was because of her deeds. She was coming home and saw her begotten friends looking at her as they were smoking. They started bitching about her. She could hear it because it was on purpose. Sunaina came close to them and snatched a cigarette from one of the girls took a puff and smoked on her face. Gave the cigarette to her and walked away. The bad things had begun and nothing was stopping Sunaina to enter into that.

The next day, it was a new morning for Sunaina. She came to college with no friends to say. As she sat in the class and she became the talk of the class. Few boys nearby started the talk as she is single who might get her. She turned back as they were talking and gave the prettiest smile to all the boys behind. She then started talking to every boy in the class. Became very close to them. She became the bad bitch that no girl liked but every boy was staring at her. She would smoke with the boys and get intimate them. She would go to clubs with the boys and allow them to touch her body. On some occasions, she became soo drunk that she wouldn’t know which boy she got up with and slept with. Boys weren’t to be trusted but she eventually gave up control over her body. While dancing in the clubs any boy would grab her butt and then she would thrust her upper body to his body giving some indications. She had changed outside but she always had this care towards her father. She didn’t tell her father what she was going through. Her dad was having a high time job at his office as the company was expanding. His health also showed up some consequences. He suffered from hypertension and high blood pressure. He used to return late at night and directly went to bed. His work forced him to delay his daily whiskey habit. His eating habits were unbalanced. This became un-noticeable to Sunaina as she was having her hangover times. She cared less about society and was living in her world. Her dad started feeling the absence of his wife and sometimes would start talking about her when he would be sad and really tired needing support. One early morning Sunaina told her dad she might go shopping and then for a party as of some random friend’s birthday party. Her dad just gave her a nod and started looking at his laptop while eating breakfast. Both finished their breakfast, Sunaina sat on her couch and started texting on phone. Her dad was searching for his bag then his spectacles his napkins stressed. And as he got all the things he just walking towards the door. Sunaina saw this and called out “Dada bye…!”. He looked behind and said, “Hahah Bye-bye babu come home safe ok.” It became afternoon Sunaina got dressed to go shopping. She booked an Ola cab and went to the mall. As she was selecting her clothes in one of the brands, she saw that a girl was an argument with an old man. She took the clothes paid the bills came out and came near the fight and figured out she was fighting with her dad. It seemed that he caught his daughter roaming with boys. And the comments and the scolding that the old man was saying to his daughter were pathetic and invading her freedom. That included about society and what her family members would say what people would say, you are a girl you shouldn’t show your skin outside people think differently and rape you. While saying all this that girl threw the cup of coke on her dad’s face. Sunaina turned back on this ugly fight and quietly came outside the mall and booked a cab to go back to her house. While on the way she thought about that one day when her dad scolded her and she took it so seriously but he didn’t question her about her freedom that she was emphasized. The cab stopped near the house. She went inside the house and washed her face. She wore the new clothes and combing her hair she was in deep thought. She took her purse and the keys but stopped in the middle and looked at the couch where her dad sat every night. She locked the main door and came outside. She stood outside while a boy with a car came to pick her up. She smiled at him and both drove towards the club. She entered with the boy to the club and everything didn’t sound the same as it should have been. Even the loud music was feeling silent to Sunaina. She became dull, she realized it and to cheer her up she asked the bartender for some shots. She had four of them. Then that boy called her for a dance. She wasn’t feeling to dance at all even the four shots didn’t work but she forced herself into this. The boy grabbed her by the waist and brought her closer. This time she was feeling a bit uncomfortable. Next, the boy in dance moves was slowly going up towards her breast and she realized she is feeling uncomfortable now and she pushed the boy and slapped him hard that he fell. She was shocked as everyone stopped dancing. He shouted, “Bitch just get lost”. Sunaina ran out of the club and she now literally felt her body and it wasn’t right. She was shivering for a bit while she wore her jacket. She booked a cab. After waiting for some time in that lone road. She was now scared and tried covering her chest by the jacket, the cab came. As she went inside the cab and firstly saw the driver, she quietly sat behind. On the way, she was now thinking hard about what all the stuff she has been doing. And her dad remaining silent all after this. She passed looking at the street lights leaning over the car window. The driver woke her up when they reached the destination. She woke up at jitter and made the payment and came out of the car. She was all shabby and her face was all drunk with all her mascara smudged. She entered the house and saw her dad drinking a whole bottle of whiskey sitting down and crying. Seeing this brought her to the senses. She sat down and hugged her dad and asked what was going on what happened. Her dad cried “We are done for Sunaina we are done. All these years I have always wanted a family together and I got divorced and every day every night I feel the loneliness and couldn’t be able to move on for these 8 years and see what I get for the reward.” He hands her a wedding invitation card where the bride was Laveena her mother. She was shocked and cried. Dad was heartbroken. “And you know she hasn’t sent this to us she has sent this to one of our friends in college otherwise we wouldn’t know about it na. I want to die. I don’t want to live.” Sunaina was heartbroken herself but she tried consoling him “Dada you die then who will look after you don’t have your wife with you it’s me who lives with you and no one else. We don’t need anyone else.” Dad cried and Sunaina slowly move his head and kept it on her lap. He was weeping and continuously saying “I am Sorry”, she kissed him on his cheeks saying it, ok Dada it's ok.