After long Time

Where were you five years ago?

There, in my little isolated corner-blaming myself for not being enough and for not being the kind of person that was easy to love and keep. I was there comparing myself to a lot of things and people-comparing their perfections and my flaws. Hurting myself with my own discouragements. Wishing desperately that I will wake up in a different body where there's no need for me to hate the person I get to see in every reflection I pass over. I was there, full of hate and hurt. I was there, so full of love for others but so tight when it came to myself.

Where are you now?

Here, in the sweet comfort of my self-acceptance. Here, where I get to change the things I don't like about myself for myself. I stop living by other's set-up terms and rules. I stopped changing my arrays to fit their borders. I stopped living up to other people's expectations of me. I am now here, finally understanding that the universe saved me from greater damages. That there are reasons why I was never chosen, never loved and was only a second best. The wrong ones will never see my worth. And I am glad to be where I am now-happier and free. I am here, wearing hope anywhere I go-content and found. Finally seeing the real meaning of life that I could share with others and with myself. I am now here, full of hope. Full of love.