Dear Diary - Part 1

Dear diary,

Today is just one of the days in quarantine. I have forgotten how the world outside looks like and my house just feels like a prison. A quite comfortable prison indeed. I have been facing mixed emotions of anger, depression, sadness, and excitement, just to name a few. I had made so many plans for my vacation after the boards that I will go to the gym for weight loss, learn guitar as a new instrument and utilize time fruitfully.

I am getting the vacation part fulfilled, but I have not yet passed my 10th standard like I was supposed to. After getting this long vacation, I feel like I have forgotten who I am and how I should utilize time. Or further, what time is..? Time in quarantine fly faster than a rocket and before a blink of an eye, two more days have been lost forever. Although time in quarantine is fast, quarantine itself feels like a never-ending river in which our boat is sailing and sailing. It feels like I now actually understand how the Earth revolving around the sun in a never-ending cycle feels like. I feel the Earth.

Time has been kind of fun too. Since everyone in the house knows that the vacation is going to last for long, no one now nags me to study the school books and as for me, although I haven't yet passed tenth, the boards are over for me. I have been getting more time to sing, dance and to fulfill my hobbies, which I used to make time for earlier. Now it seems like I have to make time for opening my dust-coated books just to have a tiny peek of what I was supposed to study.

I have literally forgotten how my friends look like, although they have photos in their social media profiles and how their voice sounds. In this span of 21 days, I am quite sure that I will forget what I was studying, what school I used to go to, and how outside food tasted like. I think I have lost connectivity to the outside world and have made a tiny world of my own in my home sweet home, which I will soon start hating if I stay in here any longer.

Until next time.

Yours truly,

Anushree.