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My Heart is sinking in the depths of failure

I tried my level best to keep myself afloat on the surface and experience the fun that each superb waves crashing on me brought along with it. I was really happy. But, then …… I didn’t even know when I let myself start drowning in this beautiful sea with the fear of being neglected, rejected and unwanted. These shackles of negativity I unknowingly tied myself to, which in turn became the cause of my drowning. I couldn’t free myself of them, cuz they had really taken total control of my mind and brain. Wherein I had stopped thinking logically and rationally. I just knew one thing…and that was….. I am a failure! And I just let myself get drowned in the sea of negativity.

I tried many a times to break free of all these negativities and make a happy life thinking of something happy, but each time I tried to do something like that, something would happen that would shatter all my confidence…..that ….. I can try to be happy.  

so , eventually, I have accepted my fate that I have to struggle to get everything that makes me happy, knowing that I won't ever get it. So, I welcome the unpleasant things, negative criticism, that comes my way as a part of my life. And I have really stopped complaining now. Cuz I know now that it's useless to try and make sense of this weird life. So, I told myself, accept ur bad life…..cuz if there is no hope, no disappointment, no heart break, no tears

  

So….here I am… trying to challenge my destiny………no matter what it takes……

I will keep on going. Let life put me to all of its toughest and the most difficult tests. Am going to attempt them all without flinching. Let's see who is more determined….me or …

And I am sure I won't be defeated this time cuz…all the adversaries ..negativities around me…..am going to consider it as a stepping stone. Rather I am happy now that these unfavourable conditions are moulding my personality into something more mature and a wise person. It even helped me to discover my own inert hidden talents. These failures, indeed, taught me life's most important lessons - to keep on going....... :)

So now it's my time to shine out.