Mirror & I

Today

Again I failed.

Again I am insulted by others.

Again I didn’t complete my work.

Again I don’t have any excuse.

Again I have to listen another story.

And again I am repeating this all words.

Today I want an answer.

Hey god, can you give me an answer?

Hey, you are listening or not. Give me an answer you know everything. Tell me why I failed always.

But again I don’t get the answer.

Again god didn’t help me.

Again I ask myself … should I ask my friend ?

No. They can not understand my feelings.

Ummm should I ask my parents ?

No no no I can’t .. yesterday my father scolded me. And my mother also supported him.

Then who will help ?

And again I am crying .

Again my heart is getting pain.

Now I am not able to think .

I want to die.

But again I can’t because I don’t have guts.

I am crying. I should not weep now I should wash my eyes. Otherwise someone will come.

Now l need to go to the washroom. I got up and went in front of the mirror. I saw myself in front of the MIRROR .

Image - suddenly I am looking at myself continuously. I am not able to understand what is happening. I am scared. I don’t know why I am staring myself.

Few minutes after I feel that I am taking myself in front of the mirror. I am confused as to what is happening. But I don’t want to leave. I don’t want to go back .Somewhere I am getting myself.

Then few minutes after I heard something .

"Hey"

Who said hey? What is happening?

Again another sound come

"Hey look at me”

I was scared .. I wanted to go back.

"Hey look at me .. don’t go back.”

"Just look in the mirror.”

"I am you”

"I am your answer”

I stopped.. mirror is talking with me or I am in the mirror.

I said .. hey

Mirror replied : Hey …. what happened?

Now I felt comfortable . I said you can not understand my feelings, you are a mirror.

Mirror : Why do you cry every time?

Me : Because I fail again and again and again.

Mirror : Who told you that you failed?

Me : Rubbish !! I know myself, I have failed many times.

Mirror : Tell me in which race you failed.

Me : I didn't participate in the race.

Mirror : Then how did you fail?

I think myself how I failed ? I am not in the race then how I failed.

Mirror : What you are thinking? Tell me.

Me : I..I..I..I am not good at studying

Mirror : So?

Me : But my parents only depend on studies.

Mirror : so… just study.

Me : They don’t know that nowadays so many opportunities have come .. technologies and modernisation has come. I can do another thing.

Mirror : What do you want to be?

Me : I don’t know but I am doing engineering..

Mirror : But you are not good at studying

Me : ya but I am an average student. I never fail in school.

Mirror : Then why you cry always? Why you slap yourself ?

Me : Because I don’t have any talent. My friends are goods in music and others are good in sports.

And some have a relationship.

Mirror : Ohh, you are feeling jealous.

Me : No, I respect them but I am not like my friends, they are active.

Mirror : And what your friends don’t have?

Me : I am 6 ft, they are not. I respect others talent, but they tease. Somewhere I am good in other activities. They have some bad habits but I don’t have…

Mirror : It means you are better than your friends.

Me : I don’t know but maybe I am good.

Mirror : But you failed. Have you ever completed your race.

Me : I told you I am not in the race.

Mirror : If you are in the race then?

Me : I don’t care how many participants are there. How many students are sitting in the exam hall. They all are not my body parts, why should I count people .. if I am going to give an exam that time I have one pen, one sheet, 3 hours and one mind, I will write myself .. I don’t care who is writing or not.

Mirror : If you are not in the race, If you don’t care how many people are participating . Then why do you cry.

I was looking continuously in the mirror. I started thinking of all my failures. I started thinking how many times I didn’t understand my reality. I took long breath .. and saw the Mirror, My eyes are shining now. And I have only one word to say in front of the Mirror.

Thank you Mirror

Now I got my answer. Now I know who I am. Only you can give my answer, only mirror can solve my problem

It means only I can do what I want to do.

It means only I can care for myself.

Only I can motivate myself.

Only MIRROR AND I ………..