My Country Is Burning ...

Schooling being the biggest shaping mechanism had a bad influence disturbing my peace of solitude ... My teachers never had a psych for an opinion, too bad that I realise now that they were trying to build me up for the day like today ... For everything I thought, was their deficit of mental recognition, only now I know, they were just preparing me for life after 2014. 

Being as judged and a non-meritorious student, most often opinionated by my teachers throughout schooling, I ended up becoming a rebel to the general assembly of thoughts. I had a problem with people judging and I still do, and by far I remained quite vocal of it as well!! 

Only till they say shall be yours till you haven't lost ... And damn yes I lost!!! Lost more than I tried, everytime I repossessed the courage to defend, my existence was challenged!!! And naive me, couraged up again ... everytime, against every wrong ever committed to any known ... Ever around !!! Of course, it was a self alone run path, voices though supported me but none had my back apart from my family who knew my potential. A different concern that my gratitude to then shall never be enough. 

Nevertheless, my boil was calmed by my communal government ... I was told about the atrocities over the years on my people, and my people mean HINDUS ... The so-called natives of my nation. But I had read a different history, too bad that I was made sure that humanity is my community. Only after 2014 did I realise I was communally racist ever since my birth. 

I had a couple of colleagues in school who practiced different religions, never did I got to know, since we were all just names in our school, none amongst all the worse of the worse teachers did ever mentioned ever that those colleagues weren't my brothers and sisters or affectionate concerns. 

But then I grew, older and wiser ... And I was recognised by my forefather's alliance ... Leave alone my merit, my proficiency was my father's religion, and God knows I got scared!!! 

My country is burning ... It's devastated in all range of expertise. I wish could have done any good but I am scared, and I didn't even realise I became a part of the atrocities ... While I was sleeping peacefully assuming my self to be a mute spectator, unknowingly I adopted their mask and hailed their agenda against humanity. 

It took me almost 6 years to realise I was pitied by my nation builders. They murdered my constitution while I thought it was the correct interpretation, at least the way it was required to be interpreted since the petty perks were allowed to my genre of silently auctioned communists. Yes, I am a communist, much like us all ... Including everyone who hasn't raised a voice, being scared of standing against the mass, the masses which I was already a part of !!! And I did not even know. 

God bless America ... While India has probably too many gods of too many religions, therefore probably the much wisely are trying to cut down the count for the almighty to consensus and bless us. Too many religions prospering has probably contravened each of individual god's powers. 

I am not happy, not at peace, not even close to being content... But I am a Hindu, who practices my religion which has suddenly become the sole heir of my nation ... 

And if I keep my sarcasm at bay even for a moment, none of it makes sense ... We've failed as a society, the basic upbringing, and it's disturbingly high time that we individually stop mocking our situation, my brothers and my sisters of be any religion and community are my own ... And none ... Make sure none should and may divulge us from voicing it endlessly. 

Make friends with your fears ... And by god, we're scared of ourselves ... 

Enough of stupidity and marathon of head hunters ... We need a nation of constitution !!! 

I'd write more as there's a volcano boiling beneath but I am sorry for being scared !!! I am not Anti-national, and I am a die-hard Hindu, for the only thing my ram my Krishna my Vishnu my Shiva my Brahma my Hanuman Ji ever told me was love thy brethren, karmanya vadhikaraste ma faleshu kada chane ... Let he who may shall decide my fate ... You the man may rest !!! If they wish to subsist me, my lord who is beyond and above all shall save me, he shall merit me enough to fight for the worthy and if I am unable, he shall empower my worthy.

 

A piece of advice by an ignored wise ... Help and support for only that's Hinduism, and everything else is everything apart from my religion. My ram sought me to be selfless and only then shall and may I be his real follower. Until then, the devil has marched his army and I am being a part of it against my own god !!! 

Help me to help you ... Enough of communism ... End this rage of I will cause I can!!! 

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