One Rollercoaster Ride!

Everything you ever want is on the other side of Fear. It is your worst enemy. Its something that cripples you and living amidst a familiar routine feels all too comfortable but that really doesn’t get you anywhere. I kept hearing this throughout my growing up years, but learnt it the hard way. 

 I kept putting things away, thinking when the time will be right I’ll have the courage to face it, not giving it a serious thought that I need to muster up the courage now and that there’s no right time to do things that is important. You need to figure out a way and get going immediately. No one is going to tell you when is the right time to do what you got to do. There’s no such thing as right time. 

 I always wanted to complete my MBA, but the thought of entrance exams scared me! I tried to comfort myself and run away from reality. But I guess life is the best teacher. When you got to face your fears you got to do it alone unlike your triumphs. MBA entrance exams might not seem like a big deal when compared to UPSC or IIT entrance exams, but for someone like me coming from a Humanities background and having had the worst relationship with Maths in School this was a big deal! Not having any experience in cracking Entrance exams only made me wonder how and where do I begin prepping? How will I ever reach up to some aspirants who can figure out a solution for a problem in under 2 minutes, when I on the other hand was just staring and trying to make sense of the question for 5 minutes? I realised that I probably wouldn’t match up to their level, but I decided to strategise and put my best foot forward.

 There were days I felt like all of this grind I was going through was not worth spending my time and effort. I even felt on some days that maybe I was just not made for it and I should settle for something else. Even my Post graduation that I pursued out of pure love initially, felt suffocating mid way. Coping with things long forgotten like Math and dealing with the pressure of Final Year for a Master’s Course is a different ball game altogether. It would have been a different story if I did it during my Graduation just like how most aspirants do. I repented having not plunged into it a year or two earlier when I genuinely had much more time to prepare. I was in the eye of the storm and there was nothing I could do except walk through it and face it. 

 All of those hardships definitely paid off. But it has never been a cake walk since then. This journey has constantly been one of facing the unknown, overcoming fear, working tirelessly towards deadlines, of learning and giving, of spending a lot of your time and energy. I’m sure it will all be worth it, but you’ve got to be ready to sacrifice a lot. Nothing comes easy.