The Internal Crossroad

As I started recognizing my inner conscience for Good and Evil, I could witness the battle inside me. The battle between the Right and Wrong. The courage to choose the right and evade from wrong ready to face the consequences. No one of us is alien to this battle and each one of us goes through this muddle, the internal feud.

Recently I was caught in a fix and found myself on a crossroads. Anil, my team member got into some arguments with our Chief and decided to leave the job to bring an end to this tussle. Anil said,” I have decided to resign, I cannot bear the way he bullies me”.I said, “Look this is not the right decision, you need to convince him with facts about your work”. But all was in vain all it seems all was decided by him in a hurly-burly. By that time even I couldn’t dissuade him for his decision. 

The next day he said, “I have sent my resignation through e-mail to him”.

Now the scenario was out of my control. To react was to swim against the stream. But the thought of losing a member, on whom you have invested your time and learning, has ignited the turmoil in my mind as well. And I found myself on the crossroad where one way was to be at the privilege of being a silent observer and the other would be to jump into the strife and favour the one who is right according to me.

 And I asked myself, “What if I would have been there at his place?” I was witnessing my internal feud and the disinclination was due to the fear of repercussion of intervening which could bring unpleasant consequences for me. But I still decided to leave the things to time.

I week before his notice period I saw Anil sitting with a sulking face, I asked him “What happened why are you looking so sad? He said, “The Chartered Accountant who has promised for a job in his up-coming project has procrastinated it”. I could see that swing of spirits from hope to despair in him.

And my internal monologues started tormenting me the more. I said to myself that “To keep mum would be bidding adieu to my values”. Since the actual crisis has arrived and this is the time to take a call & eventually the Right or the Good way wins the battle.

I spoke to the Chief “If our focus is on quality and losing a trained employee like Anil would be a loss for us”. But he showing the reluctance to my approach said in a boastful voice “We already finalized two candidates and there is no point of calling Anil back”. I still tried to convince him since I was aware of the trauma Anil and his family were going through. I was juxtaposing the two situations of retaining Anil and working with a new trainee from scratch.

God also favoured Anil and with an increasing workload and new trainee’s know-how, I was asked to call Anil back to work. On the other side Anil also realized his mistake of hasty decision of resignation, resumed his work. And hence my internal battle ended and I was at solace with myself of choosing the right path.