Unhidden Secrets!

It was December month, the chillness in the air was at its peak. I was in the hotel room, my bridal makeup was almost finished. I looked at the mirror, my red Indian bridal dress which I stopped liking just two days after I bought it, was suiting me perfectly. Someone even gave me the title 'Elegant Archita'. I was enjoying each and every moment of it, waiting for Raghav and his family to arrive at the banquet hall. And I heard it, the sound of Band, it was a bliss to ears. I ran towards the window. There he was, sitting on barouch in his Manyavar dress, enjoying himself to see the crowd dancing. He saw me, we both smiled, he gave me a flying kiss.

Suddenly the band sound got mixed with the doorbell sound and I came to my senses. I closed the album which still looked brand new. I opened the door, it was Raghav, he just passed without even looking at me properly, it has been two years since our marriage, and I think he has forgotten to even smile. We ate dinner silently at the dining table, the silence in the room was like I was having my dinner in a cemetery. There used to be days when we had intimate moments but now that little space between us in the bed feels like we are far far apart.

He kissed me, it was a passionate one, filled with love, the love that was lost in mine, and Raghav's relationship. We made love, while I was resting on his shoulder cuddling him slowly, my phone rang, I saw the screen and my heart skipped a beat, it was Raghav. I took the call, Raghav told me that he will be coming home late. As I disconnected, Shivam kissed my shoulder.

I still remember the day when all of this started. Those days I told Raghav that I was getting bored at home while he was at office, so he asked me to join piano classes, as I was having keen interest in learning piano from college days. There I met SHIVAM who was my piano teacher. Though he was 15 years older than me but in no time we became friends but I never looked at him in other way.

I was happy with my life till one day, I saw that text on Raghav's phone 'Love you Babes, meet me after office...same place'. That whole day I waited outside Raghav's office and when he came out I followed him. My phone rang, I slowed down my car suspecting that he might have seen it. I picked the call and he told me that he was having some important work in office, tears trickled down my cheeks. His car stopped, he got out and entered into a house. I parked my car at a distance and hiding from him went to the window of the house. As I peeped inside I saw Raghav kissing a Guy, I was so much in shock that I was unable to breath.

I reached home and searched Raghav's cupboard, I found a diary something was written, it was dated as 16th May 2020, just five months after our marriage. It read as 'All these years I was fighting myself to find my true identity, today is the day I found it, YES I AM GAY and I LOVE AKASH....but I can't tell it to Archita as I don't to hurt her, also I don't want people to spit on my parents just because I am Gay'. That day I went to SHIVAM and cried in his arms and in the flow I kissed him, that was the first time we made love. We both do not want to marry each other as we both had bitter experiences in our marriage, but with him around me I feel like I am in safe hands.

Last week I read his diary again he wrote 'I know that Archita is having affair with her piano teacher and I am happy for her, after all we all need someone on who's shoulder we can rest our head peacefully'. It has been one year since he wrote that and both of us are living under the same roof, hiding our identity from each other, which we both already know.