A Cold And Lonely Night

Here I sit in silence, it's a cold and lonely night

I raise my pen reluctantly, as I begin to write

I think about a time in life that hasn't happened yet

All the bad that's come my way I'm trying to forget

There's so much still that haunts me when I look back on my past

A lot of great things happened but nothing seems to last

Unsure about the future, there's not a way to know

Will I regain the happiness that I felt long ago?

The sun does rise each morning at the dawn of each new day

For me it's only sky's of gray that never go away

I need only remember a new dawns early light, always is preceded by the darkness of the night 

The suffering

The sorrow 

The regrets and all the pain

Just like a never ending storm with gusts of hail and rain

The winds continue blowing

I pray that I don't break

Not too sure of how much more of this that I can take

I find I get this way at times when no one is around 

Writing seems to calm my fears at least that's what I've found

I lower my pen reluctantly,

there's nothing more to write

Again I'll sit in silence on this cold and lonely night