A Thoughtless Moment

I was born to live the gift of life, 

I met relationships made to identify, 

I grew up to make friends and enemies, 

Weaving tales of bitter-sweet memories. 

My youth exulted in the crescendo of love, 

It also suffered the agony of a broken heart;

Hands of warm solace reached out to me, 

Rebukes too came tumbling down at me. 

Some heard clear my unspoken words, 

Some remained deaf to my spoken words. 

Some appreciated me for who I am, 

Some reproached me for all that I'd done. 

There had been times I shuddered at what others would say, 

There had been times I defiantly didn't care. 

Surge of energy flooded my being, 

Yet again dejection had wrung me. 

I did feel and fret over too many things, 

I spoke to and listened to all trivial bits. 

In the drama that slyly played around, 

All that lay within was insanely lost. 

That one silly moment of all such ones, 

I pretend I am the most important one. 

I lose my belief in the transience of life, 

In my ability to bounce back upright.

Is it unjust, is it sad? 

Yes, it is... forsooth it is! 

Coz their lives still move on as it had, 

After a while of lament and a few sighs... 

I've lost even without brave combat, 

For the glee of the ones who never cared... 

If only I waited, only if I had endured, 

I'd see heaven thro the other door. 

Then perhaps I'd meet the Almighty, 

As a free bird, unlike a battered fledgling.