Catastrophe

Feels like I have been here for an eternity,

When I prefer walkway, it's just choking me to stay,

Wishing a sudden closure to my past mistakes,

I am perishing in the sand of pain, 

Never understood the oath I took,

I stroll a few miles to discover myself in the same hole again, 

I plead to give up, yet the ripples on my head stop me from committing the misstep,

Life is just taking it and not giving it anymore,

Perhaps I need Savior to walk up and say will get through this fever, 

Pick me up from the wasteland and drop me near the shores,

Unearth heaven and rest me in calmness, 

Never felt the kind of grief, I feel right now,

It's all fun and I am the pawn in somebody else game,

I want to let go, but we don't choose death, 

we are stabbed in our deja vu like a catastrophe was our fate,

Funny to believe this was not a big butterfly effect, 

Nobody loves the choices which led them to be oppressed, 

Need a blanket to warm me, lift my hopes in this cold-blooded world, 

wish we were in some other world,

Jump off a cliff, discover to fly,

Right now it feels like nothing is in under control,

The repetitive effort of my soul, 

Overcrowded in the area of downfall, 

There is walk ahead and I don't know if I could reach the goal, 

A goal, that is to find happiness,

Making darkness turn into bright rays,

Should I believe the heavens when I am faced with shadows of the demon,

Lost the number of times knocked down,

Will, I ever have the courage to rise again, 

Should I believe in happy ends,

Can I trust the process,

Should I quit being sad and hopeless,

Should I let my cynical soul have faith,

Will Everything turns out to be all right,

Should I accept the divine power exist in our galaxy,

Will ever be able to sleep in peace

Will you say that to me if I believe.