Emptiness

I gave him so much of myself..

So much that I started feeling empty in my heart..

I could actually feel the sadness breaking through my bones

and waking up to pain..

Waking up not being enough for everyday..

Not being enough for every day is seriously "soul-sucking "

I was unable to agree with my mind that he's not for you...

I couldn't

I was scared of loneliness

I was afraid..

My silence was louder than my cries..

I started thinking

that maybe I was wrong..

I started losing myself bit by bit..

Excuses after excuses and suddenly all the love I was claiming for him changed into nothingness..

"I REALIZED THAT SOMETIMES THE LONELINESS WE ARE ALL RUNNING AWAY IS BLISS "

I felt so small

So worthless

That my heart started feeling "emptiness" but this heart is still beating for a beautiful reason..

And that was a sign that there's a beautiful life waiting for me away from this pain.

Apart from you..

Sometimes

It's very necessary to realize..

There's a pain in happiness ..

"There's life in the scattered pieces"