killer childhood
killer childhood
"pen is mightier than sword"
or so i read
on the news
as i scroll through an instagram post
about a young poet
jailed for anti-national poems
and i sigh
as my inner patriot everyday increasingly
dies.
an ad pops up as i scroll further
"subscribe to meta Instagram
for instant blue tick verification"
and i groan loudly
so the aunty beside me
sitting on the bus in the aisle seat
fanning her
sweat-beaded face
with her tattered yellow saree's pallu
looks at me scrutinisingly.
and i look out the raindrop stained
rusty window of an overcrowded bus
craving for an urgent cigarette
as i reach home
because it's raining
and i work 9-5
and i lose a part of my soul everyday
and i need to know how soon i will die
so how will one cigarette
kill me
if i die everyday weakly.
and the aunty beside me
her hands remind me of tough jute ropes
and her face of concrete cement lines
from the brick laying she does
on roofs that aren't her own
and she keeps sifting through my window
in reasons to go home
desperately.
one of the 4k laser-cut led televisions
inside a corporate electronic sales store
is playing "what makes you beautiful"
by one direction
and i can't help but stare
and wonder about time
as treacherous as my childhood
promising me happiness
but i am butchered everyday
and it's not even halfway through 2023.
and i feel a raindrop
spill across my tired face
but it tastes salty
like my tears
as i realise
i haven't danced in the rain
for 3 years
that have passed me.