Nobody Cares About You But You

You know how it works

Empty today,

high tomorrow,

numb the day after

quiet smiles across hallways

Stolen glances

at the crush

you'll never talk to The voices in your head

Deafening,

Silencing the voices outside

You don't even know how you made it to the evening

"How was your day?"

You don't know

So you nod 'fine'

Your head sinking further

Into the black hoodie you've had on

For forever

Hands pulling into the sleeves

Do they notice the scars you give yourself?

Do they care?

You've lost too much weight

It's not your fault

The food just doesn't..

taste right,

The weather just doesn't..

feel right

You get back to your room,

Grateful

You've made it through

You choose your poison It was alcohol, yesterday

Cigarettes the day before

Today? Nothing.. Your thoughts

are lethal enough 

Maybe you'll lie down Stare at the ceiling

Let your mind cannibalize itself

Maybe around midnight,

The demons will let you rest

And then?

You know how this works

The same day on repeat

Until one day

The hoodie goes off

And the windows draw open

You start making eye contact

Eating more, thinking less

You call that friend you haven't spoken to

In months

You ask if they wanna meet

for some fries, maybe? You're better now,

Happier..

Do you think they notice?

Do they care?

It doesn't matter Because now..

You care

about you.