A Letter To Me

Life is chaotic . It is  this  a rocky hill, with a rough terrain and  loads of ups and downs. Well you ain't alone if scream " life is shit. "  This world isn't a just place  and well let's just say Charles  Darwin was right " the survival of the strongest it is." For every step, you take you gotta question twice. The world breaks everyone and  many are strong at those places. Maybe it  breaks them out of their bubble to uncover their potential. You never know. Well, it is very difficult when you start something new , be it a habit , a skill or anything but you adapt. You recover. You get over it.   Wounds heal only to leave imprints of understanding and experience.  There are 7.7billion people, all busy in their own mini  worlds.  All heros of their own stories. All trying to carve their names down on the sands of time. But duh! What they forget is that it is sands of time not cement . Names get washed away. Everyone wants to be the winner. Everyone is trying. Failing. Succeeded. Falling . Standing. Time waits for no one.  And no  one ain't  a fool to wait for things to work according to their own. In this chaos called life we often forget about enjoying life. So here is this letter for anyone who is down.  

Hola!!

You " I quote " are a terribly real thing in this terribly false world, and that I believe is why you're in so much pain"

I don't claim to know you or understand you but there is one thing I know is that you feel lost and lonely.  We all do . At some point every one does . We envy people. The grass looks greener on the other side. We'd rather be anyone else that being us. So here is the thing ,  I appreciate you for that goodness within you that you keep hidden within that big heart of yours. I appreciate those eyes of yours which shine with maturity and understanding. You are beautiful . When you talk about something you love , you glow . Your eyes shine .You may  have seen a lot, suffered a lot but still, here  you are standing  tall, uncaring to the harsh world. Be proud of yourself. Love yourself. None ain't coming to make you realise that. It is a journey you must take.   An erudite person has once said, " problems aren't too big maybe we are too small for them. " Every sunrise brings the dawn of new ideas. Gives us the strength to  try once again and every sunset brings is a promise that tomorrow is gonna be better. You just have to take a break and try once again.  Embrace yourself.  appreciate the moron you . Love  the things that make you , you . We dream about  crowds and crowds of  people  applauding  us for our  achievements, but in that run we forget about ourselves . Our happiness. Maybe one day we will realize  that happiness wasn't about a perfect job, or your grades, or loving people. It was never about following somebody's footsteps, it is never about being liked by others. One day you're gonna see it - that happiness was about the discovery, the hope, the listening to your heart and following whatever it chose to go. Happiness was always about being kinder to yourself, it was about embracing the person you were becoming. One day you will understand that happiness was about learning how to live with your self, that happiness was never in the hands of the others. It was always about you. It is always about you. You matter. You being their brings many changes. That's the butterfly effect. No one will smile the way you do. Nor think the way you do. You are you. You don't need an additional tag to make yourself feel included. 

" We have both good and bad within us . Nobody is born a sinner or saint.  Who we choose to become is in our hands. What would you prefer clapping or screaming? It's all upon you. "

You aren't perfect. In fact, nobody is.  This world isn't perfect. Your flaws are what make you, who you are. Embrace them. Accept them. It is always okay to not be okay. It is okay to feel down. It is okay to fall for someone . Live in the moment . Crying about things ain't making you are weak, it is just frustration pouring out.  And that's all right . Let tears your fall. Your tears don't define your masculinity or femininity.  You can either choose a path or create your own path and write your own destiny. It is your choice . No pressure . So what if nobody has ever done that . Maybe it was meant for you to do it . You never no . Live life to your fullest. Live life in terms of intensity. In terms of smiles. In terms of the experiences you have gathered.  Your only limit , the only thing stopping you from jumping or from crawling to your destiny is you and your thought process. . You are Stardust. You are a part of the universe. You are the matter. Then how can you not matter ?

 You could die at any moment, now, tomorrow or some other day. You could die wishing for things that you never did or you could exist this world satisfied. I came I conquered. Now I go.  Life either is too short or too long. You either beg for more time or beg for all of it to end. Two sides of the same coin. Wonderful. Carry not the burdens but the lessons you have learnt. So what if she cheated on you ? So what if he left you ? So what if things didn't happen the way they were supposed to ? So what if your friends left you ? The world didn't collapse, did it? Maybe your mini world may have had some huge quakes but you rose,  didn't you? You fell and then stood up. That's what matters.  The best friend in my life is me. Try something different. You could fail but who would care? At last, you would have that big grin for at least you tried.

Whose heart doesn't fear suffering? Every body's  does. Tell your heart the fear of suffering is worst than suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams because they feel that they do not deserve them or they will be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts become fearful just thinking about the loved one who go away forever or the moments that could have been good but weren't or the treasure that might have been found but was forever hidden in the sands. Because when things happen we suffer terribly.  Friedrich Nietzsche says ," I overcame myself, sufferer; I carried my ashes to the mountains; I invented a brighter flame for myself. "

Try being a little selfish. Try living for yourself. Try becoming more of yourself. You'll end up surprising yourself, you know. Like how strong you are and how much your heart can grow. One minute you are in pieces and broken on the floor and the next moment you're on your shoes, heading towards the door. Remember there is unknown waiting for you, something bigger and better. How do you know it will be  worst ? Come on stop thinking too much . Plug the headphones  into your ears and go down the path listening to music . That too can work . You can make it work.They say ' a mind can move mountains ' I think it is  true. Because today when the world faces crises , no alien ain't coming to solve our problems . We do it ourselves . Have faith in yourself. Come on if you don't have faith in you how do you expect people to trust you? It must start with you. You are the only person who can defeat you. You are your greatest opponent. If you have made up your mind , trust me darling!  no one ain't stopping you. Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder and so does opportunity. You are an uncut , undiscovered diamond among other minerals, flower among leaves.  You are a beauty hidden under walls of  self hatred , doubt and misery. Nothing is permanent, nothing is stagnant.  Neither your misery nor your happiness. Celebrate and cry at the moment . The Dead are stagnant not the living. Change as Grindelwald said is " for the greater good ". Just stay firm at what you truly believe in. Be inspired, motivated but never manipulated. 

" This  too shall pass "

There are 1% of people who do not wake up from their sleep every day. Be happy you are not one among them. Smile big because you are here and deserve something not everything. Start with something small. Tiny steps. Your life ain't a movie. There will never be  a happily ever after. There are only happy middles. Happy moments. You won't get the answer to life or your happiness at the end. You just gotta go with what feels right. What you want. 

She was your role model. she was what you wanted to become. She rose mountains to achieve what she had.  She rose. What's stopping you ? The what ifs?! The failures. The people. Nah! You gotta fight back. If you don't. You will be just someone in the background. 

                - something I want to remember always.