An Adventure

Offer yourself to winter. Open your heart to it and let it help you. Say you'll put yourself in the centre of winter's cold, and let it fill you with warmth. Breathe in winter's coldness. Breathe it into your heart. Your life will be changed. The cold will enter you.

To walk in winter's coldness. To breathe in winter's coldness.

And breathe the coldness out of you.

Put yourself in the middle of winter's coldness. Let it fill you with warmth.

And breathe the coldness out of you.

A new season. A new beginning.

Let yourself be transformed.

Winter's coldness.

Bring it into your life.

And breathe it out.

Bring it out of you.

Let it transform you.

And breathe it out.

It's okay.

You're okay.

No one can make you.

You can do it.

You are strong.

You are powerful.

And you are enough.

The best way to learn about Winter is to go outside. Let yourself see the world as it is. See it with new eyes. Let yourself breathe in the cold. Let yourself breathe out the coldness.

It's okay to fall.

It's okay to get cold.

It's okay to not be okay.

Winter doesn't care about your perfect life or how perfect your life is.

It doesn't care how perfect you are.

Winter will simply sit.

And wait for you to make it.

And if you do it's okay.

Winter is good.

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Winter is good.

It's okay.

It's good.

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It's good.

I belong here.

Just because I can do doesn't mean I will.

Just because I want to should never stop me.

Just because I hurt should never turn me cold.

The one thing I do know.

My whole life is entrapped by hurting someone. Why did I hurt someone? To gain what I desire. So maybe it makes sense the hurting begins.

The same when I am hurt.

This leaving out hurts too. Maybe I didn't leave anyone. Perhaps they're finally leaving me.

But I keep everything invested here.

Holding them. Keeping them. Stopping their healing with hurt becomes one thing my perception was able to control in my weaknesses.

They are digging their way up though it isn't what scares me. My concern is we became addicted to hurting each other out of love. And they still loved me. If only to let themselves know that loving hurts. That loving hurt helps every bit as much.

Why didn't I become less emotionally vulnerable? Why is facing something destroying me scary to them? This leaving out hurts so much.

I used to own everyone. I'll never buy anything ever. Invest in them, shed your feeling first, wear down your skin, and accept weakness is a thief as long as it pulls me down. Share and forgive. I felt something serious. Please know, perhaps that feeling will shine through me like a light right now that they are holding up a light above the person I want to let alone to let exist as perfectly as today is the darkest they will stop hurting me. So when you hang it near me remember I will face another block to overcome if only to regain my perfect world.

Wait it out. They don't mean it. Just open and watch. Break before approaching anything honestly. Use my curiosity as an excuse to hold up anymore. Try again another day so they think I may be capable.

I look forward to meeting all those strange hurdles and making sense of clarity. Wait. Exercise the tricks. Think differently about clarity. Although I can handle deeply buried dramatic anything and pull it apart. Now don't let me dig. Please support or not support, show or not show it. I stare the low straight in the eye and flip over to heaven as if all people are working around. Sunshine beams up into all the nastiness. The faces of every life are so beautiful. They are going the hardest way through. I'm simply happier.