An Outsider

It was a rainy night, the rain was falling continuously, everywhere just water and water, the water was flowing on the road, and in that, there were no lights. Tarika, who was an alone in the home, she was searching for candle, she wasn’t remembering where she kept the candles, and she was opening drawers and finding the candles, in one drawer, she got candles, she felt happy, but that happiness was In the dark, even she couldn’t see herself, her happiness, in her own mind, luckily, she got the matchbox near candles, again she felt happy, she was feeling like she won some battle, now she was able to fight with the dark, a dark which was scaring to her, now with light of candles, she can be overcome on darkness, this thought was giving satisfaction to her. She lighted the candles, and put that on the table, another candle she took with her in kitchen, she made a cup of tea, it took some time, though all thighs she was knowledge of the kitchen, where she kept, but due to darkness, she was facing some problems, but in that situation also, she made a cup of tea, she saw in clock, it was 8. 00 PM, she thought that she had time to make a dinner, but again there was not any surety about the lights, so that, she was again thinking about dinner, she took cup of tea, and she came in hall and sat on chair, she was enjoying a cup of tea, while having tea, after finishing her tea, she came in kitchen and whatever, was in fridge, she took away, and she backed it in microwave, and she had her dinner, she finished her work till 9.00 PM, she went on bed, she started to read a novel, but she was not feeling any interest in it, and she kept aside and tried to get sleep, but she wasn’t able to sleep when she was on bed, the thoughts were just batteling in her mind, many imagination she was doing, and she was thinking about her past, what was happen if we had a life how she was needed? And after many times, she was felling that she has the need to sleep. It was midnight, she was just dozed off, and suddenly……………

 

Suddenly, there was on the door, someone knocking the door, first, she ignored it, but when the door was knowing continuously, she disturbed, she kept a cup on teapoy, and she became an angry, “coming, coming, wait, who is this? Who is on the door? Can’t you wait? Tarika was having her tone in an angry mood, and she opened the door…………….

He was on the door, He, Sharmil, was on the door. Tarika looked to him, and asked him, “Who are you? What you are doing here?” Sharmil, saw to her, and he remembered to Tarika, he remembered very fastly to Tarika, but when, he gave his own identification, she refused, to give any familiarity. It was heavy rain, he requested to her, that only for one night to stay.

 

Tarika’s house, was near a station, the station was very far from the main city, there were not many houses or bungalows, Tarika’s house, was near to station, when Sharmil, came on station, it was late night, and due to heavy rain, he wants shelter so that he can relax till morning, and so that he knocked the door of Tarika, but he didn't know that, on whose door is knocking? And when Tarika opened the door, he saw her, and he went in the past, for some time, and he came back very soon when he was trying to give his own identification. “ I want to stay here only for the night, I can’t go anywhere, when I came at station, nobody was there, and I was finding some hotels or lodge, but unfortunately, I failed to find that, I saw, the light of your house, and so that, I knocked your door, sorry for disturbing to you,” Sharmil said to Tarika, Tarika didn’t reply him, he was wanted due to rain, she advised to him for keeping his bags, and to remove his shoes, outside the home, he did whatever she told to do him, she gave towel to him. “Only today’s night, tomorrow morning you have to go at any cost, my husband came and if he saw you, he will become very angry, and he will ask many questions to me, so please stay only for the night”. Tarika told him, and she gave a cup of tea to Sharmil. “Badly needed”, Sharmil said, when he saw the cup of tea, “Again I am sorry, to make disturbances sorry, for everything, I promise, I will go in the morning, don’t worry.” Sharmil said to Tarika, she didn’t say anything and she went in the kitchen, “Excuse me, do you have anything for eating, I am feeling very hungry, don’t worry I will pay for everything.” Sharmil again said to Tarika. “Not needed, to pay anything, I will give something to eat.”Tarika said to Sharmil, from kitchen, and again he asked to about the changing the dress, she told to him for going in bathroom, and changing the dress, he opened the bag, took his dress, and went in bathroom, and after five minutes he came back, Tarika served him some farsaan which was available at home, she gave dish to him, he eats, without saying a single word, he finished and she gave a glass of water, he asked her after eating, about where he can sleep, she told to him,” you can sleep in hall on the sofa”, he just shook his neck, he was very tired, and so that he wanted to sleep. For all things, it was near about 3’ O clock at midnight.

Sharmil wasn’t able to sleep, though he was very tired, his body was advising him for sleeping but his mind…………… he was just tossing and turn, he was tossing restlessly, one question was just troubling him that, why this happened? Why Tarika didn’t give identification, is she forgot us? Or whether she is hiding her identity, what is going on in Tarika’s mind, is he really Tarika? His mind was asking about her confirmation, but he confirmed himself about an identification of Tarika, then why she refused to me, why she said that she didn’t know that who am I? just questions, many questions were In his mind, he was trying to get the answers, but he always getting disappointing himself, he was an alone in pool, the pool with darkness, and he was finding a ways to come out from that dark pool, he was very restless, he wasn’t able to sleep.

Tarika…………… what she was thinking, did she really know about Sharmil? Who was he? What were their relations? How Sharmil came to Tarika’s house? What was destiny? These question’s answers only with Tarika…………….

Sharmil became nostalgic, he rewinding himself in past, Tarika and Sharmil were friends, they were just not friend, but their relationship was beyond friendship, in the whole college there so-called relationship was very famous, but suddenly things were changing, when Tarika decided to say anything to him, it was over. When she was waiting for him, he remembered that he promised to her for a meeting, but he didn’t come……………………. He was much stressed, he wants to say everything to her, but Tarika was not giving any identification signal to him.

Tarika’s husband Amar, who was working in MNC’s and he went to conference at Mumbai, and he was coming back after two days, and two days were over, it was last night, of those two days, Amar was very loving, but he was strict, and always doubtful on Tarika, Tarika was good looking, Amar was also good looking, but he gave many restrictions to Tarika, though she has good degree, Amar wasn’t permitted to her for doing the job, because his doubtful nature, so that, Tarika was living under pressure, and scaring of Amar.

           

Tarika was knowing Sharmil was her past, she wants to share everything with him, when she saw Sharmil on door, for a moment she felt very happy, she thought that, somewhere, someone is there who can listen to me, but she back one foot, and she refused to identify him, because the questions were same in her mind, Why he left? Why he didn’t come on that day? She was also not able to sleep. It was a rainy night, both were passing with the same situation, the situation of feelings of loneliness.

           

Sharmil woke from a sofa, he started murmuring, he started singing softly that song which Tarika was like………………

Nind bhi dekhi

Khwab bhi dekha

Meri aakhon ne

Chuna hai tumko

Duiya dekhkr

Tarika came from her room, and she shouted on Sharmil, and said to him to stop the singing, she was irritating. Now Tarika identify to Sharmil.

 Sharmil said everything to her what happened on that day, he wasn't’ able to come, because his father gave an oath to him, but when he was tried to came to Tarika, his father got an attack, in hospital his father took an oath to not meet to Tarika, Tarika was not with their status, he said sorry to her, but due to his behavior her life changed, Amar came In her life, she was not happy, with Amar, she also told everything that was in her mind, which was in her mind from many years, but now it was not worthy useful, because the things were not In both of hands.

For one business proposal he came to Tarika’s village, and he met to Tarika, the night was over, the sun starting to arise, it was a bright day, there was no rain, like the clouds of thoughts, were pelted down.

          

 “Amar now it is not useful you can go now, Amar can come at any moment, if he saw you, then he will create the unnecessary mess, and I don’t want to create any more drama, so it is better that you can go”. Tarika said to Sharmil, Sharmil was listening to her very carefully. “Now we don’t have any relations, we are strangers, you are unknown for me”, Tarika said to him very rudely. Sharmil didn't have any option, he was feeling very helpless, he took his bag, and he went outside, she closed the door, and she sat on floor and start to crying, for much more time, he was looking to that door, on which he knocked yesterday night, and he changed his life’s some moments, but now it was not useful, the door was closed for permanently.

For Tarika, though Sharmil was her past, but Amar was his present and will be her future also, so she hadn’t an option, to accept Amar as it is, and Shamil, what about sharmil, she closed Sharmil in her corner of mind, she locked him and threw the keys of his remembrance at somewhere very far from her life.

Now, Sharmil was just unknown for Tarika, Sharmil was for Tarika…………………………. Only…………………An Outsider.