An Unbeatable Fight For Self Existence

Arya was a girl with a middle-class background. She excelled in her studies during her schooling, but she frequently secured 2nd or 3rd rank. Because of this fact, she always felt depressed. Despite her best efforts towards her exams, she was always away from the glamour of the first rank in the class. Because of this fact, her thought process became very obsessive for her own dreams. She became immensely possessive about even the smallest things needed to achieve her dreams, but eventually when she didn't get that, she became constantly nervous. All such mental hassles in her life were rising rapidly in her mind since childhood. By hook or by crook, these incidents were the real base for her shyness and always doubting attitude. Although she was clever right from her childhood, such circumstances made her transform into a quite introverted person, and that continued as she was growing as an adolescent girl.

But as this phase of adolescence makes most of the young generations more sensitive to something they can relate to, Arya was also caught in such a net thrown at her by the occurrence of some incidents. When she was in the 10th standard, she was madly obsessed with getting a meritorious glamour of 10th standard results. Although she tried her best to achieve that, she secured 87.2%, and that missed the merit criterion because merit closed at 90% at that time.

But seeing her genuine and industrious efforts, God was always by her side, saving her from negative vibes. So soon, she was honored in school for securing 1st rank in Sanskrit and Marathi subjects. This time she was the second topper of her school, but greetings to her parents for her success (which was not the real success according to her) made her quite comfortable.

As she entered the 11th standard, she was overly influenced by her mental hassles, emotional imbalance because of adolescence, which ultimately led to a lack of self-confidence. As a result of this, she was constantly worried about her pee problem because of which she used to go to the washroom almost every hour. This habit was really bothering her, which was developed by her own dilemma. Instead of being diplomatic, by mind as well as by heart, she used to get more sensitive to even the smallest things that might be related to her body or the surrounding atmosphere. This was because she had seen a girl struggling for support by an accidental blood patch on her top during her menstrual cycle, in the classroom. This incident really shocked her, and she never wanted that to happen to her in the future. Later on, she focused on studies and secured 83% in the 12th standard. Although she could have secured more than 83%, her subconscious mind was always taking control in some situations.

She then continued her education in Engineering, where the control of her subconscious mind started to weaken her conscious mind, and things began to change. Everything was going very well, but now she entered into a phase of struggle in her life. Although she tried for a number of aptitude tests for companies in campus placements, she was unable to clear them until 1 year. But as God was again on her side, she got placed in a company that conducted a pool campus for 4 colleges in the nearby region. She was the only student selected by a company amongst 300 students. She felt happy but at the same time, she was stressed as there was no one along with her to go and join that company because she was always afraid of leaving alone at an unknown place. Lack of self-confidence held her back from a golden opportunity that she always dreamt of.

Later on, she passed Engineering with 73.74% and joined as a lecturer in an Engineering college. Meanwhile, her arranged marriage was fixed with a guy in Nashik, who was a really good human being, and he allowed her to continue her studies further. Later on, she passed the postgraduate Common Entrance exam and started pursuing postgraduate engineering studies. But again destiny was never easy for her. She tried very hard to clear the postgraduate engineering studies in regular 2 years, which was very tough because the college only allowed those students with their project research papers published in well-known journals and conferences. Fortunately, again, as God was by her side, her research paper was selected and published in an international conference. Although all this had happened, she again got stuck with her final project execution steps, but this time she was very confident in her abilities, and she convinced her guide for the desired outcome and passed her master’s in Engineering.

But she was yet to face real struggles in her life. She was pregnant, but a miscarriage made her really sad, and still, she stood again for conceiving a second child. But again, as destiny had designed another plan for her, she gave birth to a wonderful baby boy, who was later diagnosed with a serious brain disorder, Cerebral Palsy. This time she was completely collapsed. But her husband supported her emotionally, and she tried very hard for her baby boy to achieve his milestones (like sitting, babbling, creeping, crawling), but after 5 years of her child, she was feeling completely exhausted because her child was able to do things very slowly despite the fact that she was giving 5-6 hours daily for his physiotherapy. To stand up high as a confident woman again, her mother suggested her to go for the next pregnancy. She was always worried about her pregnancy this time because she didn't want things to get worse. But then she

 delivered a wonderful, healthy baby boy, who turned her life into a heaven. She stood again for her little buddies to develop them by hook or by crook, and destiny never crossed her further. Now she is really happy with her family, nurturing her hobby. She is doing a teaching job that she always dreamt of by taking care of her little buddies and family.

I really Kudos to Arya for her wonderful life journey.